Making Chocolate Milk

30 seconds... and go!

2009-09-19T19:11:00.003-03:00

Ok. So blogging apparently takes about 10 minutes every once in awhile and I'm having a very hard time finding that time...

I've started work. It's demanding, there's a lot to learn and the expectations are very high but I really like it.

I'm finding it incredibly exhausting though and the schedule very difficult to adjust to but I'm really hoping it'll get easier!

It's really amazing what you realize isn't worth your time though when you have so little of it. Like checking websites I usually check daily or updating this or facebook and tv.

And that brings me to the end. Supper time! :)

Welcome to my life

2009-08-30T20:48:00.003-03:00

So there continues to be nothing new and exciting to report. I've been spending my time reading, baking, cleaning as well as the usual frustrating and unsuccessful job things.

I had a bit of a melt down over it all the other day but I'm trying to just be okay with it all and accept things the way they are. I have a roof over my head and a bed to sleep in and Mom feeds me so who cares if bill collectors want money?! Lol. Well I do care a bit but I'm aware that freaking out isn't going to do anything about it so I'm trying not to.

I'm really trying to just take care of me for a bit. Losing some weight, getting healthy and in shape and learning to love me. I'm really excited about it cause I've already seen some success and that's the best motivator!

This week could mean a job (I'm waiting to hear back) and it does have some excitement planned (the exhibition's in town, a doctor's appt and a little brother birthday party!) so maybe things won't be as dull! Here's hoping!

Annndddd... back!

2009-08-23T16:07:00.002-03:00

Well... I decided that I should keep up the blog. I keep thinking of all these things to share and then I remember I wasn't doing that anymore. Sooo I'm back. And hey, you missed me right?

Sooo let's see if we can sum up life shortly.

1. Poland was absolutely amazing; for all the details visit hfhpoland2009.blogspot.com and the pictures will soon be up on Flikr.
2. Still unemployed.
3. Getting stressed.
4. Got my first call from someone asking for money - a little frightening.
5. Going back to school this year. Just to take three courses over the year. Working on my Teaching English as a Second Language Certificate.
6. And unless I get an awesome job here before next fall I hope to be off to Japan or Korea to teach for a bit.
7. I miss my friends incredibly. So lonely and depressed about that one... really wish I was going back to classes with them all. Or visiting them across the country.
8. Life's pretty boring... I clean and bake a lot and sleep a lot and apply for a lot of jobs.

Guess that's life. Nothing too awesome but I'll share whatever interesting comes up!

And they lived happily ever after... the end.

2009-07-21T11:20:00.002-03:00

I'm considering the end of my blog. I've discovered I've just got too many things on the go and I barely have time to keep it up when I'm unemployed and bored let alone when I am employed and busy.
So alas my friends the end has come. I've enjoyed this whole blogging thing and it's been a good way to vent and keep everyone up to date but I think it's time for more creative and healthier communication with friends and family.
If you wanna know what's up, gimme a shout, send me an email. I'd love to hear from you!

It's been fun! :)

13 sleeps and counting...

2009-07-13T20:13:00.002-03:00

Things are in the works for the best trip of life! Money is all set aside for it (rent is another story...). I'm really getting excited!

In less exciting news... I've applied for many jobs and haven't heard back from anyone... it's incredibly discouraging. Here's hoping it gets better.

In good news... I saw a doctor today who said my other doctor who diagnosed a possibility of MS was crazy and that it was definitely not that. So yay! Now I'm just clumsy and accident prone and not actually ill.

Anyways, I'm watching episodes of Mental so I'm gonna get back to it! Tootles!

End of a good time

2009-07-04T15:54:00.002-03:00

Alors, nous avons fini notre experience en Montréal. Je suis vraiment triste de quitter cette belle ville and les persones que j`ai recontré pendant ma visite. D`accord, je sais que vous ne pouviez pas comprendre alors je vais changer à l`anglais.

It`s over. I had a really hard time saying goodbye to some people. Especially being aware that`s its unlikely I`ll ever see most of them again but it`s been an amazing experience. I love Montréal and I am so happy I did this. At first I was hesitant but now I can`t believe I ever questioned coming. I like the city so much I`m even job and apartment hunting! Probably won`t come for a few months as I need to make a bit of money first but it`s certainly in my plans. Thinking of maybe not doing social next year either but instead taking a year of French here... but we`ll see how much more I can learn on my own.

Sooo now that this adventure has come to end, another is soon to begin. Poland is three weeks away and I can`t wait. I`ve got a fundraiser planned for next weekend that'll hopefully allow me to not be to in debt when there and get some expenses paid off. Pretty excited.

Anyways, I've got a book here (a french one!!) that I can read and I've only got another hour and a half to kill before the train ride home so I'm gonna jet. Take care all! :)

Kids say the darnest things

2009-06-21T21:44:00.003-03:00

My little brother's friend got a new kitten. It's a girl and it's the similar type as my cat. My brother suggested that my cat and his friends cat mate. My mother informed him that my cat couldn't make kittens and brother replied: "Well they can just do it for fun!".

Ok, I lied

2009-06-14T14:06:00.004-03:00

...about the posting sooner. Sundays seem to be the only time I have much free time for doing much. I've had a pile of postcards have written and address sitting on my desk for over a week now and I'm just getting to them now!

Things are good. My allergies are giving me a hell of a time though - I'm miserable. Haven't slept in three or four nights now and it's super unpleasant. Hoping to take something tonight that'll knock me out cause learning a language on no sleep is not good.

This week was good - skipped out on a few things so I could do things on my own cause there's so much I wanna see and do but so little time! Found an awesome market with great food and cheap prices so I checked that place out. Also got to see the Musee de Beaux Arts' exhibit on John Lennon and Yoko Ono - "Imagine". It was really good.

This week has some street fairs going on, as well as the Festival de la Mode et Design and while it's not really my thing it'd be cool to see a fashion show! The Fringe Festival is also this week so hopefully we'll get to check out some of those events. One of my roomies and I are checking out the Biodome, Botanical Gardens and the Olympic Stadium on Saturday hopefully. It sounds like it'll be a pretty full week again!

As for the learning a second language - it's going great! My teacher is very impressed with how quick I learn and also suggested that I should have been in a higher level! Apparently I can roll my r's very well and are quite good at communicating. I'm really happy with it all. I just hope I'm able to find a good way to keep up the learning when I return home.

Poland is very quickly approaching as well - little less than 6 weeks. I'm getting very very excited and a bit nervous too! Can't wait though! And then it's back to the real world.. where debts must be repaid and work must be done... yay! :) Have a great week everyone!!

End of Week 1

2009-06-07T13:04:00.002-03:00

My apologies for the lack of posts: they keep us extremely busy here.

Things are going great - I'm really enjoying myself - the people are great, the city is beautiful and I'm learning a lot!

My only complaint is how tired I am. We never stop and we walk for hours every day (though I've already lost some weight due to this!!). But it's all good. Mom shipped me my sneakers which I'd forgotten so my back isn't hurting me nearly as much now.

My french is coming back to me very quickly. I can easily carry on hour long conversations again (though there is still a lot of new vocabulary I need to learn). It's really good, I wish I could do this program again next summer cause I think another time would be good for me.

So what have I done this week? We went to Chinatown for dinner one night, had a tour of Old Montreal and then spent yesterday in Quebec City. It was beautiful despite some rain (made much better by the cute boy who held my umbrella over me and gave me his sweater lol).

Today is a free day, thank goodness cause I'm exhausted. Just gonna putter around, lay in bed, do some laundry and some cleaning and get groceries. The rest of the girls are going up to the park so I might go too for a bit but we'll see.

I will post sooner this time, promise! Au revoir! :)

2009-05-31T11:32:00.002-03:00

Nous avons arrivé!

I am extremely tired. And slightly grumpy. I have five hours to kill with my luggage in a city I've never been in before.

So I found myself a Second Cup and I figure I can kill a bit of time here.

Luckily, I met a couple girls on the train who are also here on the same program so I`ve got company for a bit! One`s in my residence too which is good.

So how childish is it that I`m homesick already and want to go home now? Yeah... quite, I know. Ah well... hopefully it'll get better once I'm settled in my room and can get some sleep and a shower...

Anywhoo... Gonna go find something to do... I'll check in later! Au revoir! :)

2009-05-30T11:47:00.001-03:00

Officially graduated - wOOt!

Just about to finish up the packing and head out to the door to catch my train to Montreal! Super excited but super nervous too but all will be good!

Stayed tuned for exciting updates (that may or may not be in French!! lol).

Crazy Minds

2009-05-25T15:44:00.002-03:00

I really enjoy the show Criminal Minds. I really like the characters especially. I don't usually watch it a lot though cause I find it a bit too horrific? Yeah that'll do.

I watched a few episodes last week and I handled it well so I figured I'd catch up with the series. I just finished watching Season 1 and though I enjoyed it... it's giving me horrible nightmares and my overactive imagination now has me on guard for any potential stalkers, rapists and serial killers.

Sooo... MASH for a while it is.

End of the Week Report

2009-05-23T20:35:00.002-03:00

I feel an end of week report is necessary with the amount of stuff I've done this week!
I was handy lady this week! Or more like just the past couple days. Mom always says she needs a man, I've proved her wrong - she just needs me!

First, I put together a new computer desk so Mom could move the computer upstairs where it's warmer and more central to everyone. But that required moving the internet up, so I had to rewire the internet from downstairs to upstairs. However, that wasn't an easy job. I had to find the wires, fish them out of the walls and then move them up the stairs. That was great until I realized I'd taken the cable away from the downstairs TV and since well that one's where I watch that just couldn't be. So then I had to get the cable back downstairs... let's just say it was a job and a half! But a good time.

Then... Mom bought a BBQ last week and it's been sitting in the garage since then, still in pieces in the box. So I tackled that. All went well until I had to take a piece apart (one which I'd eventually have to put together again.. why it didn't come apart in the first place I don't know!) but anyways... the screws are in too tight and I can't get them out.. so I'm stalled on that job.

Aside from handy lady jobs... I think I've got everything ready for the time away starting in 6 sleeps!!! Just gotta pack it all up...

Grad is in only a few days! Getting excited to say I did it!!

Anyways, time to see how much I can fit into my suitcase.

Birthday fun

2009-05-11T13:54:00.003-03:00

According to one of my mother's preschoolers who was trying to guess my age today, I'm 80. Thanks kid. Now I really feel old.

My cat's birthday gift to me? Thrown up worms. My little brother went fishing yesterday and left his dirt and worms in the porch...

My father and brother forgot my birthday. Gotta love it. Oh well, just a birthday.

I have a headache, yet again. This is going on week three of headaches. It's unpleasant. Time to complain to the doctor I think.

Tired!

2009-05-09T20:26:00.002-03:00

Today was babysitting day - children are too busy and require way too much energy.

Not too much exciting going on. Tomorrow I'm fundraising for Poland. This event's going to make or break me so I'm really really hoping it goes well. If not, there's always hope my auction will go well but getting donations is not going as well as I'd like.

Had my first successful doctor's appointment in a long while on Thursday. I've been really frustrated lately with the medical stuff going on cause I just haven't felt like anyone's listening to my concerns or taking any action. My family doctor however is sending me to another doctor here in town who he assures me will look at things and get us started at looking into treatment options etc. So that's a relief!

I'm a year older on Monday. My mother keep saying time's flying and it's flying for me too! It feels like just yesterday I was 16 or graduating high school, yet somehow I'm graduating university in only a few weeks! Just wish I knew what was next though...

Anyways, I'm super tired so I'm going to get stuff ready for tomorrow and then head to bed. Night and Happy Mom's day!

Happy May!

2009-05-02T17:44:00.002-03:00

Living at home is tough. I love my family I really really do but as most families go, they have their moments (mine possibly more than some) when they are absolutely unbearable. When you couple that with my preference to live alone (though maybe not so much a preference but just something I'm accustomed to), things can get a bit messy. I've been doing well though I think. Only had my first flip out today. Over the fact that someone had put both ice cube trays back in the freezer empty. It really ticked me off. I'm not feeling well either though so I'll blame it partly on that. Not too sure what I've got but I've been achy and weak/tired and feverish for a couple days now. Hopefully it'll pass quickly.

I knew that taking this summer off would have it's negative points, mainly financial ones. But I didn't expect it to get this bad this fast. It really puts a damper on one's awesome summer when you've got to worry about paying bills and whether you've got the money to buy toothpaste. But I think I taught the bank a lesson today when my NSF fee (for a payment bouncing) also bounced. Ha! Really, do they think you've got the money for a fee if you didn't have it for your bill? Now as long as I don't get charged an NSF fee on my NSF fee...

2009-05-01T00:08:00.002-03:00

Well I've found one good thing to do with my time: get sunburnt.
I've been spending my afternoons outside in the sunshine reading. It's gorgeous and I'm loving that I can polish off a fun book in four days or less!
I picked up the book Child 44 at the bookstore the other day just cause it caught my eye and sounded like it'd be a good read. Thus far it has lived up to its expectations. At this rate however, I'm going to run out of books on my to read list... so suggestions of good ones are more than welcome!!

Moved.. ish

2009-04-28T10:24:00.003-03:00

So the move is done. I'm glad it's over. Well its over inasmuch as you can say that when half the boxes are still packed and my belongings are still half in the trailer in the garage.

I'm hoping today I can get the rest of the stuff unpacked, 'cept for my books as I'm bookshelf-less currently. Though not sure what I plan on doing with myself when I do get it all unpacked... I have a feeling this is going to be a very boring month!

Our neighbor is apparently bored with his own property and asked my mother if she had any trees she'd like cut down... so he's currently outside cutting down trees for us. Free labor - gotta love it. Long as hauling them away is in the contract!

So I need to get some volunteer experience in. And I'm honestly not sure where or what to do. I'd like it to look good for social work programs, as I'm quite sure I"ll be applying for them in the future. Suggestions?

Soooo I have a month off. What exactly do people do with a month off? It's been a long time since I had a month off with nothing pressing to do. Last time was when my ankle was broken.. and well I still had stuff to do! This time around.. only thing I need to do is brush up on my french, try and learn some Polish and fundraise $2700! I do hope to do some family history research though which should keep me busy at the library for a few weeks.

Its sunny out! And I have a magazine... I think I'm going to go outside and read it! Bye!!

Leaving sucks

2009-04-24T14:43:00.001-03:00

So the move is fast approaching and there are so many things I'm going to miss about this city!

The Market! I know I don't make it there all that often, but I love that place. Just the energy and the vibe every Saturday morning, the wonderful smelling food and pretty things! Definitely going to make sure I get there tomorrow morning.

Bookstores! Home doesn't have bookstores like they do here. Especially not used bookstores. I love wandering through row upon row of books other have enjoyed. There's something about a used book, knowing someone has flipped it's pages, read its words, cried and laughed over it. That and they're cheaper!

Coffee Shops! Home has coffee shops. If you count Tim Hortons. But not pretty ones where they know you by name and you can just sit for hours and watch the world go by. They have tasty coffee, play good music and there are lots of other people just like you sitting reading or working.

The small town feel! This city isn't huge. And my hometown isn't huge either. But there's just something cozy and serene about it here. Something that just makes you like it.

Independence! It's not city related but it's what I've got here. Independence, I can go where I please when I please. I can get places and I don't have to be dependent on anyone else nor is there anyone to answer to. Not gonna be the case at Mom's. But oh well!

Ok. Well I'm going to enjoy my last coffee shop sit while I work on the next chapter of Islander's thesis (apparently I am very good at editing). And then say goodbye to some more friends tonight. And finishing the packing. Joy.

Only on the city transit bus....

2009-04-23T22:25:00.002-03:00

does a man introduce himself and then say "But my friends call me night owl".

WTF?

2009-04-23T22:17:00.003-03:00

I promise this will be my last packing complaint - but I hate packing.
I think I'm almost done though. Just the last minute stuff that can't be done until the morning of. So much for getting rid of a lot of stuff though... and so much for only 10ish boxes.. I'm looking more at 20-25. Ugh.

I babysat for the last time today... I've been watching the kids for the past couple years several times a month so it's pretty sucky to have to say goodbye. And of course this would be the day that the little boy actually likes me and gives me a hug goodbye. :(

Alrighty, I'm sleepy. Night!

DONE!

2009-04-22T09:48:00.002-03:00

So I'm finished: wOOt!

And I'm at the library again. I told Islander I'd proof his thesis. I love MS Word's "track changes" feature. And I feel smart when people ask me to proof things. I would do this for a living. I'm much better at finding other's mistakes than my own. But I feel bad marking up his paper so much... but he said to so here goes!

Gotta finish up some H4H money stuff today. And then I will have nothing left to do.

Must pack tonight too. It's getting to the last few boxes. I've been trying to weed out books but it's not gone so well. I love my books too much. God forbid I ever move cross country or something.

Ok. Back to my last morning in the library. And then off to my haircut!

single in the sunshine

2009-04-18T18:27:00.003-03:00

First off - It's gorgeous out! I think a sit outside to study is in order.
Second - the exam this morning went much much better than expected.
Third - I once again did not sleep last night. Thanks to exam stress and my loud neighbors. I really hope I can get some sleep tonight cause I don't know if I can go another night. What's happened to me? I just to go days without sleeping but I can't even go one night anymore. Probably for the best.

Today was spent studying for my last two exams. Most of that studying took place in a study group for my Federalism class which was really good. It was a generally good time and I think I'm quite ready for the exam and still have until Tuesday to study. Our study group was just me, Islander and a couple other guys we know so I was able to comfortably ask stupid questions which I think really helped.

We decided to go to dinner afterward cause everyone's stomachs were growling. There was good food. Apparently however a woman "of my caliber" (not my wording) doesn't usually go to dinner with three guys. The waiter seemed genuinely distraught that none of them paid for my meal and even more so that I wasn't dating any of them. I know I complain sometimes about the single-ness and yes I wouldn't mind being the significant other of one of my dinner mates but it's not a crime to be friends with a bunch of guys right? Actually to be honest, my three best friends are all guys. I was slightly insulted that the waiter didn't think I could just be friends with them and that it was such a shame I wasn't dating someone. Anyways, it was amusing and a bit bothersome.

Alrighty, I must go do laundry as it's been week and eventually someone's going to notice the number of days I've worn these jeans in a row. Enjoy the sunshine! :)

Coincidence? Awesome nonetheless!

2009-04-18T07:40:00.003-03:00

Sometimes life is just awesome.
So last night I was listening to Snow Patrol, who I am beginning to really really like. Especially their latest album. Lying in bed, I pondered the possibility that they'd be playing somewhere I was going to be this summer. A possibility that I thought might be a bit more realistic since I'd be in some bigger cities than my hometown. So I looked up their tour dates.
Now let's skip back a couple more days. A couple from our H4H trip sent us out an email sharing their after the trip plans, which consisted of a U2 concert in Charzow, Poland. They invited anyone else to go who might like to. I said I might be interested, especially as I'm not sure I'm going to Ireland anymore.
So back to my looking up Snow Patrol's tour dates... guess who's opening for that U2 concert? :D
It makes me happy cause it just does and it's allowed to. I think I can justify spending 400,000 PLN on a ticket now (It's not as bad as it sounds lol).
Ok. Time to go write this exam!

no sleep for the unwise

2009-04-17T19:49:00.002-03:00

So I may or may not have had red bull last night (mixed with alcohol - who's dumb idea is that?) without knowing it.. until it was too late. And umm... it kept me up all night long. I was not impressed.

In other news. I am about to fail my first exam tomorrow morning. Not good at all but I am so unprepared for this exam. I've resorted to googling the terms on my review sheet in hopes of at least gaining some knowledge before I crash (which isn't going to be long from now I don't think).

New!

2009-04-16T20:23:00.002-03:00

Ever just wanna pick up and move your life somewhere else? Somewhere where no one knows who you are. To a city you've never been. A big one where you just blend into the crowd and you practically don't even exist.
I want to. I want a clean, fresh start. I want to go somewhere where no one knows my successes, my failures. Where I can confidently walk down the street and know I won't see anyone I know. And where everyone I meet has no pre-conceived notions, thoughts or anything of me. Where no one knows what I"ve done, where I"ve been, what's been rumored or thought of me. You can be a completely different person in a new place, you can be whoever/whatever you want cause no one's the wiser.
I really want that clean slate. It's very tempting. I won't lie that I'm super excited to spend a month in a new city this summer! And I'm going to extend the job hunt to places other than my home town.

Technology is odd...

2009-04-14T21:57:00.000-03:00

So about 4 months ago my CD/DVD drive on my laptop stopped working. I'm finally getting around to getting it in to get fixed. I figured however that I should try it once more time just to be sure it isn't working and it's not my doing something wrong. Well it turns out it does work... it seems to have fixed itself. wOOt.

Very LAST paper!

2009-04-13T13:26:00.018-03:00

1:27pm - 34.5 Hours to research and write a paper. And study for tomorrow morning's exam. Gosh, I'm gonna miss this hell.

1:50pm - 515 words. wOOt.
P.S. the library basement is creepy.
P.P.S the new Metric Album "Fantasies" is enjoyable.

1:58pm - My eye keeps twitching: super annoying. 635
Oooo moving out of the basement up to a table with Islander and his gf - yay!

2:33pm - Oooo Montreal information has arrived. Paper distraction. Getting excited but fearful that my French or lack thereof is going to make the time difficult.

3:19pm - 767. Ugh. And I'm ready to be done. And I'm hungry. And once again, there's no food on this campus!

3:57pm - This paper's on Slavery's roots in the American constitution. It's the first legal-ish paper I've written this term and I've missed 'em. I said I didn't want to go to law school but I lied... I'm sure I'll be applying in the next few years - 872.

4:11pm - I think this is gonna be one of those papers where I fudge the margins a bit.. 1033.

5:01pm - And I'm stuck at 1260. Ugh.

5:24pm - I added some quotations - 1650. I'm so glad this is my last paper. Though I know in a few months I'll be looking to be writing them again.
Oh yes... and I haven't studied for tomorrow's exam yet. :s

6:07pm - 2000. On the nose. I have to more sections to write on but I have to go to the Law Library for 'em... so I'll do that tomorrow. Studying for the exam for the rest of the night now. Yay.

8:19pm - Studying didn't last long as we went for food. Mmm Mexican rice! Now I will study. Sorta.

9:27pm - So I haven't studied yet... I'm not feeling so great. I think I might just go to bed and get up early... ugh. Yes. That's what I'm gonna do. Night!

10:39am - Day 2. Wrote my first of four exams this morning. Went well enough for the little studying I did. Now to finish up this paper.

11:27am - wOOt! Free hot chocolate and free cookies! Though it did involve getting my picture taken. Oh well. Chocolate is worth it. 2143.

1:24pm - We took a lunch break. Two hours later... 2286.

1:56pm - Ok. I give up. Time for a conclusion.

2:16pm - I've gotten super hyper. Done by the way! :D

2:45pm - Done the footnoting and such. Last paper of my undergrad sucks like nothing I've ever written before but it's done. And that's the important thing!

My Five List

2009-04-09T21:36:00.004-03:00

So LLG (Who we will soon be introducing!) and I were chatting about the five celebrity men we were allowed to have. No matter what. It didn't take me long to think of mine...
1. Hugh Laurie
2. David Boreanaz
3. Jason Statham
4. Matthew McConaughey
5. Nathan Fillion

Night Off = TV Night!

2009-04-06T22:50:00.004-03:00

House was super sad and unexpected tonight.
Bob Saget has a new TV show...
I really like the new show Castle: Nathan Fillion is hot.
Oo ooo Fringe is coming back! Yay! I thought it was over for the season.

A tale of one paper

2009-04-05T13:13:00.015-03:00

It's another one of those frantic paper-writing days.
I'm writing my term paper for European home fronts at war on propaganda posters. And it's due tomorrow morning. And I have yet to start anything. Not only do I have nothing written but I have very little research. It's certainly not going to be my best writing ever. But alas I say that a lot and I make it out fine which is probably why I'm not as worried as I should be... which is probably a bad thing.

1:16pm - 400 words! And I don't like Cadbury Poppin' MiniEggs. Very odd sensation in ma mouth. Not a fan.

1:23pm - Seriously craving McDonald's French Fries and Chicken Nuggets - 600!

1:28pm - And I'm "playing again..." stupid Coffee games.

1:56pm - 1000! I'd say that's pretty darn good for about an hour's work! I may not be able to pull the all-niters anymore but ya learn to write like a speed demon after 4 years of major procrastination!

2:36pm - 1300! Halfway there. But I've only used one source.. oops.
You know what band I've missed listening to? Third Day. I do enjoy them, and Mac Powell's voice is particularly captivating.

3:03pm - 1565! I know it's a bit late for the following academic observation but... I don't say enough of my own thoughts in papers. I rely solely on other sources usually. I mean I'll argue something but I use other people's research to back it up.

3:28pm - 1800 words in and I've finally decided on my argument: war posters were the home front's weapon of war. And I'm going to call the paper "Weapon on the Wall". Brilliant I know. :D

5:45pm - 1800 words still. Had a meeting with next year's H4H co-chairs... I'm sad to be done. :( But confident they'll do an awesome job. Back to the paper now.

6:30pm - Seriously, there is no food on this campus! I'm hungry. :(

7:02pm - 2300 words. 2500 is not 10 pages however, so I guess I've got more to go than I thought. Oh well. Though I think I'm gonna head home soon as I'm too hungry to stay here much longer.

7:54pm - 2800. Still not 10 pages. Bloody hell. Almost though, only need to add another paragraph or two so I'm going home now where there's soup. Mmmmmm...

8:54pm - Mmmm soup was tasty.
On a completely different note.. I want a kitten.
And back to the paper.

8:59pm - Oh and the job. I can have it if I want but it's definitely not something I'm up for doing so no job. :( Oh well!

9:11pm - Annnnddd Done! Just got citations left. Best part! Not.

2009-04-04T22:23:00.000-03:00

Dryer + Chapstick = not good

2009-04-04T18:33:00.001-03:00

You know you've been drinking too much Tim's coffee when... you try and roll up the rim on your Starbucks cup.

Employment?

2009-04-03T13:15:00.002-03:00

So I might have a job! Yay!
But my connection for this job is my father. And well, nothing he's ever tried to help me with has ever panned out so getting excited is probably a bit premature.
But it does sound pretty legit.
Not sure how much I'm cut out for the job but it's worth a shot and at the pay rate... I'll make myself right for it.
So I just have to go through the usual formalities and such and we'll see how things go... I'll keep ya updated!

Made my day!

2009-04-01T20:58:00.001-03:00

So I'm procrastinating and watching TV and the show I was watching was talking about googling one's own name. So since I'm trying to waste time, I did.
I came across a blog with one of those survey's posted on it. It was done by a guy I'd gone to elementary school with. In the survey, under the question "first crush" was my name. I will admit it made me extremely happy; gave me quite the burst of confidence. Even if it was about me when I was in grade five.

2009-03-30T10:38:00.002-03:00

I really want a little interac truck to follow me around. No, there wouldn't be any money in it but I just love that little truck with it's windshield wipers and it's beeper. I think life would be just so much funner with a mini armoured truck following me around.

Yuck

2009-03-27T15:06:00.002-03:00

I hate being sick.
I don't think I"m all that wimpy when it comes to being sick. Mind you, it's not my favorite thing in the world but I've usually been able to continue on and stick it out. Lately however that's not been the case. I feel like when I get sick my entire body just goes on strike: everything hurts and I am incredibly weak.
I've got a cold. And I've known several other people who've had it but they were all able to make it to classes and continue on with whatever they needed to do. I however was so weak this morning I couldn't even get out of bed.
Anyways, just wanted to state that it sucks. And now I'll stop complaining and go back to my juice.

Laundry Dilemma!

2009-03-25T21:13:00.001-03:00

Ok. So. A white and black striped t-shirt. Do you wash it with the whites or the darks? I don't know. Conundrum.

Back from blogger vacation!

2009-03-25T19:15:00.002-03:00

Ok... so longest hiatus ever!
I'm back! Sorry: things got super busy and with the one person I know of who actually reads this being in the same province as me for so long there was really no point.
Anyways... recap.
H4H trip = good. Drama. Small crisis. All manageable.
H4H in General = pretty much over. I'm sad and don't want to be done but it's time for bigger and better things right?
Speaking of bigger and better... this morning I booked flights to Gliwice Poland for a Habitat for Humanity Global Village trip this summer as well as a trip to Ireland. I am thrilled and super nervous as well. Can't wait to tell you all about it!
School = super super busy. Wrote about 10,000 words just last week. Only 2 papers and 4 exams from graduation though!
Unfortunately, that's about all my life consists of... someday I will have more. I promise.
Ohhh oh Dave!'s been here! Which made me incredibly happy. Incredibly sad to see him go though. But it was very good to see him. Ya don't realize how much you've missed someone till ya see them again.
Alrighty, that's the update from the month long blog vacation!

2009-02-26T20:57:00.002-04:00

Stupid sick!
Ah well, I'm feeling actually quite well. Unlike the other H4H co-chair who's been bed ridden for a day now. Here's hoping tomorrow bring health!
Anyways, this is my note to tell ya to have a great first week of March! I'm off on Saturday and tomorrow will provide no time for blogging. So yes... have a great week! :) Tell ya all about the trip via my twitter posters!

Movie Mania

2009-02-23T14:01:00.002-04:00

Yesterday was my personal movie day.
But FIRST, Slumdog Millionare = amazing! Hence all the awards it's won. I think I can confidently say it's the best movie I've seen in years and I don't usually give movies "best" labels. I also really enjoyed the soundtrack too.

And onto yesterday. Yesterday was romantic movies that make me cry day: The Break-up (ok that didn't make me cry and it actually wasn't all that good) and neither did Vicky Cristina Barcelona (though it was quite unique) but P.S. I love you and Love Actually sure as hell did.

Curse Islander and his gf for telling me I had to watch P.S. I Love You - I cried the whole way through it. However, I'm going to go to Ireland and find me an irishman cause oh dear. ;)
Actually I think I am going to Ireland. I found a relatively good price for a tour so I'm thinking of staying after the H4H trip in Poland to spent a week in Ireland. I figure since I'm over there and it's extremely cheap to get from one place to another I might as well. Ya only live once right?

Ok. Since the research books I needed to work today are still in the library and the library is closed due to collosal snowfall... I'm going to watch movies again... but less sad ones this time.

The Saturday Student

2009-02-21T14:49:00.002-04:00

Seapower paper - the co-operate effort of the British and U.S in the convoy system won the First World War. I can argue that... I think.

Still without a topic for my Homefronts during WWI class thought...

Worst feeling in the world = realizing that someone you'd hoped would be your friend for a long time isn't going to be... and its a frienship that's pretty much over now.

MC and I are going to see Slumdog Millionaire tonight. I'm not usually one to jump on bandwagons of popular movies that win tons of awards but I think I'm going to make an exception for this one!

Thursday Tidbits

2009-02-19T14:33:00.003-04:00

I've slowly been recovering from Sunday's experience. Not sure if my reaction is right or wrong or expected or normal or silly but it's been an unpleasant few days. I think I'll be much better once I get a good night's sleep though it may take some drug induced help to get it.

It's snowing out. I want spring.

Only good thing about the snow may be the cancellation of my midterm tomorrow morning. Though that'd give me two on Monday.

9 more sleeps till Tennessee!! I'm not as excited as I had been, kinda nervous about driving but excited regardless!

Annnddd... it's official. I'm going to Gliwice, Poland this summer! I am very very excited. I'm attempting to scrounge up the personal funds to join a tour of Eastern Europe or Ireland after the Habitat build. I'm hoping I'll be able to fundraise everything I need for the Habitat part of it though, and so far I've gotten quite aways just through donations!

I wish to recommend Snow Patrol's album: "A Hundred Million Suns" to ya: I like it!

My iPod is acting screwy. It really got tossed around on the bus the other night so hopefully it didn't do something to it.

I'm writing a paper. It's supposed to be 2-3 pages...I'm on my 5th.. Oops. I've got one article left to read for it.. and I just don't want to... I wonder if I could get away without reading it... especially since I've written so much already... hmmm

My throat is scratchy.. you know that scratchy just before ya get sick...? And I'm sneezing and feeling generally not right. Dear goodness, I don't have time for a cold right now.

I use MS OneNote for my lecture notes and other than that fact that it encourages my ridiculous organizing, I can search things very easily. Which makes "study guides" of terms very easy to put together.

Maybe I shouldn't have stayed on campus in this storm... getting home may be difficult.

2009-02-16T14:55:00.002-04:00

The information has become available about the crash now... and it's not good.. all three people in the car (a 31 year old father and his two children, a 3 year old boy and a 5 year old daugher) were killed.
I've never understood the emotions of people involved in things like this but now I do... I pretty much haven't stopped crying. I feel silly for it but at the same time I don't feel like I'm feeling enough...
It sucks... alot.

watch out for the ice!

2009-02-15T23:56:00.002-04:00

So because my life is NEVER boring...
My bus was in an accident this evening on the way from spending the weekend at home back to here. The roads were bad and a car coming the opposite direction swerved into our lane and we hit it head on and then proceeded to drive over it: it ended up somewhere behind us in the ditch.
It was horrible... I'm still shaking. I was reading at the time so my head was bent over so when we crashed my head went straight into the seat in front of me. I'm now nursing some very sore neck and shoulders muscles. I'm not sure how but the window beside me was shattered too.. luckily it didn't actually break cause it would have fallen on me. Thank god the bus driver was able to keep control of the bus too otherwise there could have been much more serious injurious and some bus flipping.
Few people on the bus were hurt, just a few from the front of the bus (like me) who were sore, so we all get some ambulance rides to the hospital (one no where near either of my home's leaving me stranded in the middle of no where all alone which sucked).
The car however wasn't so lucky... not sure abotu anyone but there were two children in the car and someone had been thrown from the vehicle and their condition had been iffy... part of me kinda doesn't want to know cause the thought of it upsets me incredibly...
I am terribly sore right now... the pain just keeps adding up as new parts of my body protest the being flug around feeling. I'd currently like to brush my teeth but alas.. my bag was left at the scene in the bus... it is supposed to be in the bus terminal by morning so I can go reclaim it.. provided I can walk lol.
Ah.. never boring!
Oh and because of all the mayhem I missed my HFH interview this evening. Luckily the woman was understanding of the entire situation and we've postponed till tomorrow evening.
Sooo how's everyone else these days?! :-)

Possible excitement?

2009-02-09T20:03:00.002-04:00

Ok. So I've been doing some thinking somewhat based on things people have been asking me regarding what I'm doing after graduation. I"ve gotten many suggestions that I should travel and that's something I would really like to do. Unfortunately there's no way I could afford it.
However.... something I've always wanted to do is a Habitat for Humanity Global Village Trip. This is something I could fundraise for and not have a pay a huge chunk from my own wallet and at the same time could be doing something really awesome!
What'd ya think? I think I'd be looking to go first of August... and yes. I've already looked... and my locations options are....Macdeonia, Hungary, Poland, Brazil, Zambia, Armenia, or Guatemala. And I would be happy with any of 'em.
Thoughts? Suggestions of hugely successful fundraising?

2009-02-08T15:21:00.002-04:00

I love the TV Show M*A*S*H. I always have. I know it's not the kind of show most people my age like. But there is no show that can make me laugh one minute, and cry the next. It's my feel good show and I like it. So there. :)

A Night on the Town

2009-02-08T11:24:00.002-04:00

So last night was the history and polisi societies pubcrawl. Since all my friends are polisci and I'm history it was the perfect chance for us to all hang out. The night was certainly interesting (and fun!)

One of the polisci profs came out to the first locale. It was slighty weird to be drinking with one of my prof especially when he sat down at our table, and next to me and chatted it up with all of us for quite some time.
I had a major freak out at a house party that came next in the lineup. Huge panic attack that required my quickly running out of the house (much too loud, too many people and in waaay too small of a space). A and Islander were kind enough to leave with me then. But not after Islander freaked out at some guy for touching my backside while I was putting my boots on.
The next amusing incident. A guy I had a class with a few semesters back and who I see at the library all the time but who remains relatively shy and doesn't say much to me was also there. He came up to me and threw his arms around me and said "This is gonna be awkward next time I see ya at the library" and then ran off.
It then began to rain... In February... actual rain. I was and still am slightly confused. Not to mention the fact that the rain landed on my straightened hair which then turned back to curly as it got wet and made me look like some sort of wet poodle.
Anyways, we skipped the next locale for a place where we could all sit down. I didn't stay too long cause after they'd be talking politics with some guy for 45 minutes and I hadn't said anything as I had absolutely nothing to contribute and I was bored out of my mind. I was incredibly glad to get home out of the cold and wet though.
Anyways it was a good night. I'm glad I don't do that too often though... ugh!
Today I am nursing some pain as I slipped on some ice yesterday, and hit my head and hurt my neck so I can only turn to the left today.... lol. Gonna clean up the apartment and then make chocolate roses tonight with H4H... at my place... hence the needing to clean up the place!
Tootles!

Super overtired

2009-02-06T16:32:00.002-04:00

I hate stereotypes and I hate playing games. I hate even more that I'm expected to play games if I want to change my relationship status.
What I do not hate are Fridays and passing in papers: tonight is veg night. I'm going to clean the apartment. And then settle down with some movies and some wine and some leftover curried noodles. I will then attempt to get a good sleep.
Tomorrow will be a read and paper research day and possible pubcrawl.
The End.

2009-02-04T18:54:00.003-04:00

I'm smitten with a boy who might actually know I exist. :D
Yep... same one from way back when. Lol.
*sigh...* :)

Woes of the Friend far away...

2009-02-04T18:32:00.001-04:00

I have a few friends who live far away... and I often don't hear from these people that often so everytime I hear of someone dying or being hurt in the cities where they live I panic. Silly I know but I do. :)

Day 2

2009-02-01T11:30:00.011-04:00

Day 2 of Work-Like-A-Mad-Woman finds me with a huge list of things to do. All of which I must get done by 7pm so as to watch the Superbowl.
I am also met with slight disappointment in the weight loss goal for the week. Must eat more fruits and veggies and workout everday whether I feel like it or not cause I know I'll feel better when I do.
So first on the list of things to do: shower. Yes. It's on my list. Cause if I don't then I'll forget. It means I lose my straight hair again though. :( But I now own a straigtener so I can do it myself when I have an hour and a half to spare in the mornings. I actually really like it straight: it looks much redder straight and it's just a very different look. I'm excited to be able to wear it down and straight more often; even if it makes me look more like my sister.

So I've finally made some decisions about what to do with myself after graduation. I've actually decided to stay at home for a couple years provided I have I can get my license and a vehicle. Depending on how the job front goes, after a year or so I think I'm going to take some courses from the local community college. Probably just non-credit ones in Computers and Business, so as to make myself as employable as possible. I plan on making my mother take a computer one with me as well. I think it'd be good for her and it'd be nice to have someone do it with me. I'd also like to take a French course or two after taking my 5 week course this summer: just to make sure I don't lose it like I have!

So I haven't actually gotten any school work done yet. I have however showered, gotten dressed and organized the basket of odds and ends under my coffee table. I so want a job where I have my own desk! :)

I hate money. And I think my loan co-signer is more difficult to deal with than the actual bank is. Ugh.

I've filled out my application to graduate - wOOt!

Ah Facebook: God of procrastinators.

Oh Death Race: A little dark. Ummm, I'd have to be in a "mood" to watch that one again. But ohhhh Jason Statham...marry me. Or at least... no never mind. ;)

Oooo football time! (And paper writing)

Such a girl: I choose my favorite team by who's got the nicer uniform color and the cutest quarterback. :)

Random Procrastination

2009-01-31T16:09:00.003-04:00

Have you heard Oasis' newest album: "Dig Out Your Soul"? You should. It's enjoyable.

I think I'm going to spend some time this evening with Jason Statham in "Death Race".

Think it's too early to make a "To Bring" list for the Habitat trip? I don't think so. After this chapter is read.

Darn, my hi-lighter is running out. :(

Pretty sure I've gotten more done in the past 4 hours than I have all term. That's horrible!

And apparently the library closes earlier than I thought... much earlier. So gonna have to pack myself up sooner than I'd wanted. I can move towards coffee!

Oh I was wrong. I still have more time. Which is good cause I didn't really want to get up. Especially since I seem to have hurt my ankle as the swelling, bruising, limping and pain would suggest.

2009-01-31T16:08:00.000-04:00

Belligerent doesn't mean what I thought it meant.

2009-01-25T19:27:00.001-04:00

I loooooovvveeeee Ryan Reynolds in Blade:Trinity.

*Drool*
*Sigh*

Weekend adventures

2009-01-25T13:51:00.002-04:00

Ah dear blog, I have neglected thee lately.
Mostly cause I just have nothing very exciting to say.

Last night was no broken bones for a year party! Lol. So we played board games (Quelf and Stock Ticker). All very much fun. I'm still cleaning up the plethora of things Islander spilt on my carpet, after my having done a good cleaning of the apartment yesterday morning. Oh well, twas a good time nevertheless.

Today is reading day. Thus far it's been my most productive day all term. Needless to say I've been not feeling very motivated to do any work lately. But I have gotten to the point where I no longer have a choice so now I must play catch-up. Which only puts me more behind so perhaps it will be more like a pretend I read everything up to the point and just working on staying on schedule for the rest of the term.

Today is Lsgb's birthday. And since this time I'm not stuck in the hospital there are plans for celebrations this evening. Not sure how much celebrating will be done since it's Sunday and everyone has class early in the morning but it should be a good time nonetheless.

I got my haircut! I went in for just a trim and then the woman cutting it asked if I wanted bangs. I said no cause I'd never had them before but lsgb quickly said yes. So here I am with bangs which are driving me absolutely crazy cause they are in my face and keep getting stuck between my glasses and my face. My hair is also straight right now, which looks really nice. I may actually try to straigten it more often too. But I'm a lazy person when it comes to my hair, I like wash and go and straightening it is certainly not a wash and go process but we'll see!

Anywhooo back to the work!

2009-01-18T18:52:00.002-04:00

When I said I hate romance. I lied. I freely admit it.
Stupid Sunday movies. :)

And in exciting news!

2009-01-16T15:56:00.003-04:00

After discovering that I've gained a tremendously horrible amount of weight since starting university I decided it was time to get healthy and lose some of it (if not most).
I usually have a very difficult time keeping motivated and such. But this week I've done great and it's shown on the scale - making me extremely happy!
Now to keep it going another 3ish months and I'll be happy. :)

Complaints

2009-01-16T15:40:00.002-04:00

Don't read if you don't want to hear me complain.

You've been warned.

It's bloody fricken cold out there! And in here. There's an extremey cold draft coming out from under my heater. I can't stuff something under it cause then I'd die when my building burnt down. And my build makes huge cracking and banging noises in the cold.

Second, you know what really sucks? When you realize that the person you've been crushing doesn't like you. At all. Even as a person or a friend.

Last, on the relationshipy front... being the only one of your 10ish friends who's single is an unpleasant place to be in. Weekends and holidays can be pretty damn depressing when everyone's got someone to spend it with you but you.

Annnddd self pity over. :)

hard but last term!

2009-01-07T21:09:00.002-04:00

So classes are back. And I've started 'em with a bang: a very very sore back! I've been stuck on my couch for the past two days pretty much, can barely walk. I have no idea what I did though. But I got to the doctor tonight so hopefully the drugs I got will help speed up the recovery process.
So I was all excited about having an easy term (only four classes and only on Tuesdays and Thursdays, until my advisor emailed me today and told me I need another history course for my major. So now I'm in three history courses, and two political science courses and have classes every day of the week. So much for working a job and having a easy last term. Instead I"m probably going to have the busiest and heaviest workload I've ever had.
Oh well, the classes should be interesting. I've got Canadian Federalism (which now that I know what Federalism is, should be interesting. Plus I'm in the class with Islander, A and LilL). Then there's International Relations Theory (Has two huge papers but it also has my crush in it soooo... ;), then there's The Germanies After 1945 (Also should be cool), Soldering Through the Ages (also cool despite the 30% participation mark) and Seapower and World Wars (which I haven't been too yet). So that's my last term of university!
Well the meds are kicking in and I'm getting drowsy and dizzy and a bit giggly soooo night! And I'll try and update more often over the next bit!

Sunday movie fun

2009-01-04T16:24:00.002-04:00

So in the past couple days I've watched the four Die Hard movies. I've been meaning to see them for awhile and just got around to it now. A few things...
- In the first three movies... he makes friends with a black guy who helps him out. They switch it up in the fourth.
- The fourth one... not nearly as good as the first three. They tried too hard I think.

Overall, I enjoyed them. Good movies where ya don't have to think too much!

On another note... H4H needs to pay me... I wouldn't need the part time job then! I've just spent 6ish hours doing stuff today.. and there's still more to do. And I can see at least 5 hours or so of meetings this week. I really like it though... is there a job where I can do this kind of thing all the time?! Cause I want it!

2009-01-04T01:11:00.001-04:00

I'm doing horrible on my try to avoid walmart resolution...
But I did get the first three seasons of Stargate SG1 today for only $30! So it was worth it!

Overheard during the holidays

2009-01-02T18:59:00.001-04:00

"[while hanging a mirror]
Me: "Now which of us is better at screwing?"
Mom: "Well I've had more experience..."

[After putting up the Christmas tree]
Sister: "Gross! I've got spruce tree all over me!"
Mom: "Wonder how you managed that, especially since this tree is a fir."

[After opening her "Bamboo" towels]
Mom: "Ooooo I'm getting all ecological; David Suzuki would be so proud!"

[During a game of monopoly]
LilCousin: "Whistler isn't in Canada!"
LilBro: "Yes it is! It's in Ontario!"

[While playing the Wii for the first time]
Mom: "Remote jacket? I have to go get my jacket?!"

2008-12-27T20:31:00.003-04:00

One can really stretch out Christmas gift money if you're willing to brave the people in the stores!
I was able to turn my meager holdings into two CD's, a chocolate orange, a purse I've been in love with for ages, and a sweater-coatish thing. Oh and a Christmas gift for a friend!

little boy Christmas blues

2008-12-26T21:12:00.002-04:00

We had a very small Christmas this year: money's been tight and Mom just couldn't afford much. In fact, we've never really gotten much for Christmas but as children it never really bothered us cause none of us had many friends so it was difficult for us to compare. My little brother does have good friends though (the ones that call you on Christmas morning to share what they got) so he knows that compared to his friends he received very few gifts. To add to his jealousy, three of his friends received the Nintendo Wii for Christmas and called him that morning while he was playing with his sole toy: a new box of lego. Needless to say, he wasn't in the best of spirits that morning.
I know Christmas isn't about the gifts and all that, but it was really hard to see him upset. And it's not like his sadness was a spoiled kid kind of tantrum, he was just being a little boy.
I shared this story with a friend last evening who then called me today to tell me that he and several other people we know have all chipped in to buy our family a Wii. I'm stubborn so it's hard for me to accept something like that but I know my Mom and brother will be pretty touched when they find out. People can be really nice sometimes!
On the Christmas gift front... Mom asked my sister and I if we felt Christmas had been a bit small: we admitted it had, lol. However, it turns out she forgot a couple of our gifts which explains why things had seemed a little meager. We all got a good laugh...
I slept in my new pj's last night though! And started reading my new book by Naomi Klein: Shock Doctrine and so far I'm really enjoying it! And "Santa" got all pratical this year giving me a box of kleenex, some windex, paper towels and dish soap... that or it's a hint!
Anyways, I'm going to go do some more reading: must finish up the Catcher in the Rye!

2008-12-24T23:53:00.001-04:00

I'm a grown-up now!
Or at least I've decided that for me this is a sign of grown-up-ness: I know when I'm acting like a child. I can now actually, honestly recognize when I'm actually not acting my age and need to do something differently!
Yep! And that folks, is my Christmas observation!

That, and Christmas is not nearly as much fun when you're no longer a kid.

Happy Christmas all!

holidays!

2008-12-23T00:53:00.002-04:00

I remain alive. Sorry, the last couple weeks have been hectic but it's over now. Exams are done, some marks are in (I am so sick of school!), and I'm home for the holidays.
Nothing very exciting to share though. We got a ton of snow last night, so we were snowed in all day. But we've finally be plowed out so getting out of the house tomorrow is now possible, which is good cause I'm bored out of my mind! I just never know what to do with myself when I'm not doing school work. Being finished school will sure be interesting: I don't know what I"ll do with myself!
Anyways, I should get some sleep; night!

stressed out observations

2008-12-14T15:25:00.002-04:00

- When on blood thinners, cuts take a long time to stop bleeding.
- I like dancing at places where the attractive men are in suits. And I like that kind of dancing much more than club-type dancing. It made me happy.
- Gift shopping for people who live far away is very difficult; party cause you have no idea what they have and don't have, and it has to be done sooner than the rest cause it needs to be shipped.
- my cat likes my little Christmas tree too much.
- if you mistype google you can get some very interesting web results

Back to the last assignment of the term!

yay parties!

2008-12-09T00:18:00.002-04:00

So the Islander party went very well: he was completely surprised. And I think a good time was had by all.
So we got alot of snow the other day, there's probably a good foot or so on the ground right now and A is really not sure what to think. This is more snow than he's ever seen before and we keep warning him it'll get worse. He wears longjohns on a day where we would all be going without mittens and hats lol, and apparently finally understands the necessecity for winter boots. He drove in a car in the snow today and nearly had a heart attack when the vehicle fishtailed a bit, while everyone else in the car just laughed at him.
Anyways, all good.
MRI was this morning. It went okay. I don't think I moved at all and the panicky and freaking out was kept to a minimum with the help of some nice medicine. And my last major paper has been passed in, just one last short one to pass in tomorrow morning and then just a collection of journal entries due on the 16th. Tomorrow I"m gonna spend tackling the studying required for my two exams on Thursday and Friday - both of which I think will require alot of work.
Anywhoooo I've been up for well over 24 hours now so I need to get some sleep. Night!

2008-12-08T03:35:00.003-04:00

You know.. I remember being told that one double spaced page of a paper should consist of 250 words. That was a lie. It takes about 350 for me to get one... maybe I use small words...

sleepless nights

2008-12-08T02:30:00.003-04:00

So I slept much too late again today. I haven't even been up for 12 hours yet. But this is a good thing because my MRI is tomorrow morning and since I'm already having panic attacks about it, it's unlikely I'll get much sleep tonight.
And well I still have a bit left to finish for my paper that's due tomorrow too.
I put up some christmas lights today, and my wee little christmas tree; the nice snowfall we head sometime in the past 24 hours put me in the Christmas mood so it was the perfect means of procrastination.
So I'm host to a surprise birthday party tonight night. It's Islander's birthday this week so I brought up throwing him a party to his roomate and his girlfriend last week and we all decided it was a good idea. He's a really selfless guy, never asks anything of anyone but constantly gives and he's the last of us to turn 21 so we figured a bit of a celebration was in order. He's been away all weekend so I'm confident we can actually pull this off without his finding out. I'm pretty exicted cause I love throwing parties and I've always wanted to throw a surprise party!
Anywhoooo I must go finish up this paper! Night!

medical fun

2008-12-04T01:16:00.003-04:00

Over 15 hours spent at the hospital didn't get me far. I did give up about 11 vials of blood though. And eventually I will be forced to have an MRI in the next few days.
Tomorrow however, in celebration of being a bit richer due to the ankle break, is Me day. I'm super excited. And then we've got martini night: even though I can't drink cause I've been put on blood thinners (in case I'm having a mini-stroke - yes, so comforting).
Anyways, I should get some sleep. Night!

2008-12-01T23:35:00.002-04:00

So I've been experiencing some lovely new symtoms from the brain thingy. And they are super unpleasant and pretty damn scary. Currently it's that my face is asleep. Particularly the left side of my face. This is by far my least favorite sympton. I can handle that I no longer cry out of my left eye and that my left eye twitches but this one is just annoying. Ok. And really scary. I'm having a nice panic attack over it. Ok. Need to go distract myself.

3 more days!

2008-11-30T22:25:00.002-04:00

I had to ask one of my professors for an extension on a paper. I absolutely hate doing it. But I've got 5 due this week (2 Tuesday, 2 Wednesday and 1 Friday) and there is just no way I can do it and do it well.
I got to see... well hear, Matt Mays and Sam Roberts in concert last night. It was quite good. And we raised alot of money for Habitat. Even had to start turning away coats cause we ran out of room and tags! But still good.
Even better cause one of the group members... possibly my favorite (yes I have favorites) told me he loved. And drove me home. Yes, platonic love but I can wish it was more right?
All right, I should be doing papers right now. I slept until 4 this afternoon (apparently I'm still sick) so I'm going to be up all night now so it's officially time to get to work.

2008-11-29T18:35:00.000-04:00

I am amused by the prospect of suicidal deer.

cough cough

2008-11-28T23:58:00.002-04:00

So I have medicine but I'm still not feeling better. At least when it comes to the cough and the lack of voice. But I'm not complaining cause I'd rather have a cough than a head cold anyday.
Emotionally at this very moment I feel great. I've realized something and it's making most of the things I've been fussing about lately seem like nothing. Which is quite nice to realize.
Wednesday night was trivia night, it was a good time. A and Islander were very very drunk and it was most hilarious at most points. Thursday morning was fun for us who were feeling fine :)
So I've got 4 papers left to do: 1 Tuesday, 2 Wednesday and 1 Friday - tomorrow I'm going to spend my day working on my last 15 pager. Hopefully I can get it done by Monday-ish.
Anyways, I'm gonna go put away some clean laundry and then get some sleep - lata!

2008-11-25T13:06:00.002-04:00

So my lack of voice and cough seems to be escalating into major sickness. I've got a nice fever going on and I've been coughing up blood. So because my friends might hurt me if I don't I'm going to make a run to the hospital.
But in good news, my seminar is over and it went very well. Now to finish up 7 papers and 2 exams and the term will finally be over!
Ok. Must go see doctor who can fix me.

library antics

2008-11-24T13:55:00.002-04:00

So I'm at the library. Without a voice. Which should make my giving a seminar tomorrow quite interesting. And of course, there are people around me. Let me tell you about a few.

First, there is the man feeding food to his girlfriend.
Then there are the other couple friends who are talking about their grad gifts (A trip to Europe, $10,000 and a new car)
And then there are the three guys talking about women's breasts.

Sometimes I really really wonder.

So it's Sunday...

2008-11-23T14:10:00.005-04:00

2:13pm
you know, in case you didn't know.
I'm watching a football game with Jack, while eating the only thing I seem to have in my apartment for food (as I am completely broke) and thinking about my paper.
Yes I am aware that I have been "thinking" about this paper for months now. After Wednesday I will not speak of it again. Until it's published that is. ;)
I want pizza...
Yes there was just a commerical on for pizza. lol.
Ok. Papertime.

8:43on
So I did a bit of work....about 200 words worth lol. But I put out some Christmas decorations. And cleaned up the apartment.
And now I'm watching a movie.

9:27pm
So I seem to have developed a cough. It hurts.

10:40pm
Ok. I'm sick.
But the movie "The Island" is very good.
LilL is adorable, she's sooo worried about my finances right now - she wants to buy me groceries. I love that my friends love me!

2008-11-22T17:44:00.002-04:00

Soooooo it snowed last night. And not just a little snow that'll go away in a couple days. It's here to stay. I think it's gonna be another winter like last year's. I wasn't impressed. Even less impressed by my apartment company and their lack of shoveling and plowing. But I bought boots so hopefully there won't be any broken bones this year!
I met a boy! lol. He gives me butterflies and makes me giggly.
And I may have gone on a date with a woman last night without meaning to. Oops.
Ok. Gotta write a paper so I can do something fun tonight or tomorrow!

Back!! (from nowhere really...)

2008-11-18T18:49:00.002-04:00

I have not died. But someone else did so I spent the weekend at home (and it was my Mom's birthday too). Anyways, yeah. Still here. Things just got busy.
In summary:
- I'm now a joint honors student in History and Law in Society - super excited and really not at all bothered by the fact that I won't be graduating this year. My advisor already has plans for me to be doing my masters afterwards.
- Our habitat budget it super low this year - partly due to the fact that we have three personal cars this year.
- My little brother scored his first goal in his five years playing hockey - so proud - so I took him to see Madagascar 2!
- Bought my Mom an expensive wine for her birthday - It was good but so strong - pretty sure I was drunk off a couple sips.
- The library recalled the book I was using for my big paper due on Monday, before I was done with it! I'm a bit stressed now.
- Only two weeks left in the term - but a busy two weeks it will be!

Ok.. I'm supposed to be starting this paper right now. So I should get to it. Tootles!

2008-11-11T19:17:00.001-04:00

Am I a horrible person for thinking this is funny?

Embarrassing Moment of the day

2008-11-09T22:18:00.002-04:00

I was talking to myself when I was walked into my building this evening. And there was someone else in the lobby. They gave me odd looks. Oops.

2008-11-09T15:19:00.003-04:00

My history major is in military history. Ironically I am only taking my military courses this year. It's going to be a very violent year of courses. But super interesting. I'm learning alot of military strategy type stuff too. Which is also interesting. Alrighty, back to the RAF's super horrible bomber command of the early 1940s.

One night of Risk

2008-11-08T20:47:00.004-04:00

Two people very allergic to cats
One "adult apartment"
Three bottles of wine
Alot of name calling
Some judging based on movie and cd ownership
Some illegal drugs
Some peer pressure
A couple very good and a couple very poor Risk players
One very good time

Today...
One trip to the market
Seven hours at the library
Twenty-To pages of notes made
Three chapters read
One thesis considered
One very exhausted girl

Meet new friends

2008-11-05T14:41:00.002-04:00

LilL (also known as L) - littlest and cutest lady I've ever met. She's originally from BC and moved her with her fiance when he started law school. She's an absolute sweetheart. She's well travelled, smart and super kind. She's super little but is a ball of energy. So glad I met her but heartbroken that after this year I'll probably never see her again.
A - recently moved here as well. Also super well travelled. Working on his polisci masters. Can speak several languages. Smart, funny and all around nice guy.

yay for getting gussied up

2008-11-05T14:31:00.003-04:00

So I got to dress up last night! Engineers without Borders were hosting a wine and cheese night and I got drug out by Islander and his gf and A (new friend! - but I've got no creative name...)
It was a very good time. Got to buy a dress and feel good. There was wine and we won a martini tasting night in the silent Auction.
We then went to the pub on campus for a bit. Islander's GF and I have hit it off and she's a real sweetheart so we got to know each other while the boys talked politics. Of course.
Ooo but speaking of talking politics. The other day we were out having a few drinks (all my good stories now revolve around alcohol... hmmm) and this friend of Islander's sat down with us and starts ranting about all this stuff which was all really stupid. I sat quietly while Islander, the weird guy and A argued for about 45 minutes. And then I'd had it. I went off on the guy for a good five minutes. I never do that. But it was quite invigorating and I felt very intelligent for once. It's been the talk of everyone for awhile now cause I think I caught everyone a little off guard.
Anywhoo now today I have all afternoon and evening with very little stuff to do so I can get some stuff done. ie. laundry, paper research, and habitat duties.

2008-10-31T22:02:00.002-03:00

For those of you who honor the celebratory day: Happy Halloween.
I do not though. Thus I will continue to indulge in my depressive state as of late. Going back to bed. Dave!, I really wish you'd been here this past week. Goodnight world: see you Monday morning.

2008-10-28T22:09:00.002-03:00

So Lsgb and I went to see Max Payne last night: horrible movie.
I've been watching the show Two Guys and A Girl which makes me very happy. Mostly cause it has Ryan Reynolds and Nathan Fillion in it.
Mom and are I are talking about what to do next year if I don't go back to school... it's absolutely terrifing. I have no idea what kind of job I'd like to be working... or where I could even get a job. Ugh, so much easier to just be a student forever!

observation

2008-10-27T00:56:00.002-03:00

I've been getting a bit bugged lately by what feels like my own lack of intelligence. My friends are very smart people: they all have very strong opinions and can express them very academically. I on the other hand cannot. I have opinions (sometimes - alot of the time I just sit on the fence on things) but I can't express them. I can't back up my opinions at all.
Another thing lately is that I'm not taking anything in, I've got a class on the Middle East right. And I've decided that I don't agree with the creation of the state of Israel. However, if you asked me to explain to you why (in person) I wouldn't be able to get it out. It's frustrating.
I can't remember anything I read. And I thought this was just me, but I've come to realize alot of people I know (Johnboy and Lsgb) are having the exact same problem. Which makes me feel a little less unintelligent and incapable of being anything academic. I think we're schooled out.

2008-10-26T18:10:00.002-03:00

Well it's Sunday (duh).
I spent my weekend with my head in books. Did got out for a bit last night with Lsgb, Islander and his new girl and another friend. Was an okay time though.
I did get alot of work done this weekend though: should leave my week pretty free of required readings. We've got a coatcheck this week and I'm still working on talking someone into see Passchendaele with me but I may actually have time!
Anyways that's absolutely all I have to say right now. I will look for something fun for next time.

2008-10-21T22:28:00.002-03:00

I wrote my last midterm today and the H4H meeting was long and tedious, so I decided not to bother with any school work this evening (not that I could afford an evening off) but anyways I curled up under some blankets (cause my heat still won't work) with some H4H work and watched Brokeback Mountain. I'd never watched it before but we were talking about it in a class the other and I thought I'd like to see it. Well I haven't cried like that over a movie in a long time.. possibly ever. Yes, I am a sap.
And just now I melted a burner cover - turned the wrong burner on... it smells horrible in here.
In other news, I really like the new show Fringe. It's "x-fily" and amusing. I like it.

COLD!

2008-10-20T22:14:00.002-03:00

So I've been being really stringent on my heat lately. In other words I've refused to turn it on. Well I've had to give in. When you can see your breath in your apartment and there's frost outside then I think it's time. So I turned it on. And discovered that it doesn't work. I checked the breakers and saw they were turned off, so I flipped them but alas it still does not work. I am very unimpressed. We're supposed to get snow on Wednesday - I need heat! Anywhoo... gonna go find some mittens and go do some studying - last midterm tomorrow!

Schools!!

2008-10-19T20:36:00.002-03:00

It's getting to school application time so I've begun organizing myself. And to keep y'all up to date on where I'm thinking of going and who's rejecting me and who's telling me they love me... here's a bit of a rundown.
School S - will never accept me but if they did it'd be nice cause I wouldn't have to move.
School W - in a city where I know no one but apparently a nice city. There's is an honors program too so that'd nice.
School K - very similiar situation to W.
School M - In a province with some people I know, but getting home could get expensive. And the people I know there I don't know well but they are nice people. Could be an okay place.
School D - 2nd best option, not far from home. Have family there. Have been there before.
School C - Far away from home, but Dave!'s there. Have a great program so I'd be lucky to get in.
I'm nervous as hell about moving far away... just with the whole finding somewhere to live part. How does you find an apartment in another city? I can't afford to go out before hand and then come back... it should be interesting... but it's exciting!

2008-10-17T16:18:00.002-03:00

Just had my very first huge H4H crisis. And aside from the tears and the swearing and freaking I think I handled it quite well. Ironically the source of the crisis may have been my fault. But it's been dealth with and all is well. Looks like we're going to Tennessee this year! Definitely not where the group had wanted to but it'll do.
Alrighty, I'm gonna go be sick and try not to take up smoking or excessive drinking.

Cause I'm just awesome

2008-10-16T15:43:00.001-03:00

I was just on the phone with a guy about an H4H fundraiser. While there he asked if I"d ever heard of this other lady cause she had an outstanding balance with the company and was also involved with H4H Int'l. I said I had no idea who she was but would look into it. He was appreciative cause he'd been trying to figure it out for months now. So after I got off the phone with him, I asked a few people a few questions, googled a couple things and found her. I called back not 15 minutes later and told him where to find her. He was amazed. I'm just that good. :)

lonely lazy laughing girl seeks someone to do her work

2008-10-15T19:35:00.003-03:00

The nice long weekend wasn't long enough. I'm exhausted - too much to do. I was always told that fourth year was the easiest - lots of electives etc, mine is the opposite. I have no electives. Everything I'm taking is important, hard and full of a lot of work. Is it Christmas break yet?
So I've started walking home from school. I desperately need the exericise and it's a nice walk. Here's hoping 15 minutes a day is enough to get into better shape but not too much that it kills my ankle.
P.S. The TV show - Big Bang Theory is absolutely awesome. I haven't laughed that hard since Dave!'s impression of the Whiskas Cat :)
Ok... there are books in front of me that are calling to be read and assignments need to be written... later!

Eeeee!

2008-10-10T21:45:00.002-03:00

So I didn't have the best last couple days, but it's all been recovered in the knowledge that I am going to be receiving my very very first wedding invitation in the next few months. I am sooo thrilled. It's silly but its the first of closer friends to get married and my official first wedding invitation, address solely to me. Oh yes, me and date. That part should be fun. Anywhoo, it's super exciting.
Anywhooo it's time to get some sleep. A couple of us are heading to the market for breakfast in the morning and then I'm heading home for the weekend. With promises to return with pumpkin pie and turkey for those who weren't able to go home. Alrighty, happy thanksgiving!

Because life is more fun when it's confusing:

2008-10-10T13:48:00.001-03:00

We have two exec members with the same name and three who go by the same nickname.

2008-10-06T22:14:00.002-03:00

We all had a good cry in class today. My professor started it with a reading, and when she started choking up we all followed eventually. The guy sitting beside me even has very teary looking eyes. Gotta love that Holocaust.
I suck at being a comfort when it comes to relationship troubles. I try but I just don't know what to say and when I do say something it feels so fake (i.e. I heard it in a movie or read it in a book). Ugh.
The straight hair is fun. No one recognizes me. A guy I met awhile back walked by me earlier - I said "Hey". And then he realized who I was and was like "What's different about you?" Lol. And then another friend was looking for me in class and walked past me several times without realizing it was me. Ah but the curly must return, as I must wash my hair tomorrow. :)
Alrighty... Night!