This is the worst paper I have ever written. I know I"ve said that before. But honestly, this one is bad. I just ramble on and on about the same thing. I am one page less then I am supposed to have and its bad... so very very bad.
Lsgb says it doesn't look *that* bad... but she could be just saying that. Though she's usually pretty honest.
I've just started the other "paper" I have due today. But then I got distracted when Lizzie called and then Habitat sent me stuff so I got distracted again. Not going well at all.
However, now that I'm back at it.. I"m hoping that feigning intellingence through big fancy words will make it appear that I have actually considered my topic and have a thesis for said paper. The prof's an idiot so hopefully my ignorance will pass unnoticed.
Ok. Gonna go stab myself in the eye now! :)

I am drinking hot tea and eating iceceam... love it!
Not feeling the love for the paper though... I see a huge fat F in my future...

My computer shut off during the night due to a power outage... when I restarted it, it said "We apologize for the inconvience but Windows was shut down impropery and needs to..." Which leads me to ask... who's we? Weird.
I woke up in the middle of the night and was missing part of my pyjamas... I wish I remember that dream!

Sleep and Movies

Ugh. I have a headache.
I got alot of sleep last night, well needed though. I don't think I'd slept much more than a few hours a night for the past couple weeks so I "caught up" last night with a good twelve hours. Though it wasn't good sleep, it was sleep regardless.
And then today I"ve watched movies and worked on my papers. I watched Just Friends and Waiting... (yes... bit of Ryan Reynolds kick I know). Just Friends was amusing, Waiting... really weird, don't know if I'd recommend it.
Then Cliverslover came over and we watched Evan Almighty. I laughed lots.
I then showed her a terribly amusing clip of this week's Bones where Booth squeaks out of fear. And we laughed. I honestly had to pause it and laugh the first time I saw it; it's just so out of character and so terribly hilarious.
And since I'm not liable to sleep tonight cause I just slept my weeks' quota last night... I'm gonna go watch Boondock Saints cause I like it. And I'm gonna work on my paper... can't forget that part.

My hair is bugging me.. it's too short. And I can't figure out how to change the time on my cell phone... and why didn't my computer change automatically? Ahh.. I just looked it up... cause apparently it doesn't change until 2am. I see.
So far the power hasn't gone out, though it's out at Mom's and at M's parent's place... but I'm not complaining; I don't like the dark.
Okay... going!

*I definetly have watched more movies today then I have since Dave! left. That's horrible.

Call me...

I got called odd at work...
I was cleaning the milk cooler (cold cold job) and some big important person was visiting and I heard them talking about me. He commented that I did a good job with the cleaning etc, and didn't seem to be doing it begrudgingly. My boss says..."Yeah, she's a little odd." Thanks... I think.
Speaking of being called things... I do not like to be called ma'am. Nope. I get called alot of things (honey, miss, sweetheart, darling, baby), one customer even calls me lover and I can deal with that. But ma'am. Ugh. Do not like it. Amusingly enough the people who call me that are my age!
Ok. Back to my papers!

And the most important thing I learnt the past couple days...
My friends care for me. Most of them at least.
They don't want to see me hurting, and they don't want to see me getting myself into a situation where I'll end up hurt.
One friend teared up during our little heart to heart and it meant alot.
It's makes me happy... and sad that I can't want better for myself and realize my own apparent "potential" and good qualities etc.
See... I'm crying just thinking about it.. bloody hell.

On a sidenote... during the laptop accident my papers etc got ruined... would it completely pathetic of me to copy my entire book of h4h notes into another notebook?

Lessons Learned

Well its been an interesting day or two... where shall we start?
Last night was intersting... as the terribly sober one it was also quite amusing. But I did learn a few things. First, I look after people, I'm good at it or at least I'd like to think I am. I looked after Dave! when he was sick in March, at least till I got sick. And then last night and looked after M. So yeah, I'm good at it and I don't mind doing it. I like being nice. Second, I fall for the wrong people, and they turn out to be huge jerks. Third, every halloween between M, Cliverslover and I, one of us manages to get terribly intoxicated, one ends up hurting their back and the other ends up making out with someone. These three things happened last year and they all happened this year. Some to the same person (i.e. the back and me, Cliverslover and the making out). This time M took the prize for the drunk one. Next year I'd like to try something new :)
Something I learnt today completely unrelated to drinking and halloween: laptops and bottles of pop do not mix. And that's about all I can share without freaking out terribly.
On a somewhat related note, I also have learned that its good to back up EVERYTHING on computers... i.e. all your class notes from this term!
I also learnt that some people are not cut out to cut hair. Like the woman who did my this afternoon... she was so rough. She keep pulling it and combing my ears and she got shampoo in my eyes It was a horrible horrible experience. And to make matters worse, she cut it too short so it won't fit into a ponytail anymore.
They were playing christmas music at the mall today. Eeep. I can't believer its November already...how times flies.
I went to buy deoderant today.. there were a million different kinds! I must have stood there for 15 minutes trying to decide. Settled for a coconut one, which is exciting, that choice wasn't there last time I was there.
Ok... I'm going to go die a little bit...