My mother called me a little while ago crying, my godmother and honorary aunt died very suddenly this morning. I'm absolutely crushed. This woman was one of my favorite people. She was this really awesome lady with a huge head of fiery red hair and tons of freckles, she had a laugh that just made the world better. She'd wrap you in these hugs that made you feel like you were so little yet so loved. My earliest memories have her in them. She spent almost every Christmas at our house when we were little. She did all those fun things aunts are supposed to do with you. I stayed at her house when my brother was born, and then again when my sister was born and that was probably the best thing ever. She's in every home video we have of our childhood, usually however the one doing the taping. She had dogs, we loved them. When we got older and she got married, we visited ever Christmas day and she was at all the big events like graduations and 16th birthdays. And even though I haven't seen her in a few months and its nothing like the kind relationship we used to have with her, I'm heartbroken. This has to be the worst part about growing up; I'm not ready for the dying of people I really love. Especially of people who were completely healthy just yesterday. She was supposed to be around for much longer. She was supposed to be at my wedding, to be Aunt to my children and it isn't fair and it really really sucks.
But life's not fair is it...?

Food, Reading, Weird Cats

I'm terribly tired. But that's not important.
I am also very hungry. Again. Allow me to rant on this for a little while. I'm not a big eater. I eat a little and I'm full for hours. I've never had any problem going all day without anything to eat. But the last couple weeks I have been absolutely starving all the time. Like today, I got up this morning, had toast and a protein shake thing (my efforts to help with the hunger) at around 7. By the time I got to the university at 8, I was hungry again. Every hour after this I was needing to eat something. And its not like I just feel hungry. My stomach growls and it really really hurts. And best of all, I'm waking up in the middle of the night to eat something. So much for midnight snacks, I've been doing the 3am snack! So I'm a bit bothered by this. Just cause its annoying and expensive to say the least and quietly opening granola bars in class is not an easy feat.
And its just weird, I mean, if I was twelve I'd say I was going through a growth spurt. Or if it was possible, I'd say I was pregnant. However, as long as I understood health class... that's not the case. So who knows... I do know one thing: I am going to need to start working out cause well, this is going to result in weight gain and I really really don't want that.
My next rant concerns reading. Another weird thing. I'm having trouble reading and I was having this trouble before the lack of sleep. I can't seem to focus on just one line. So if I'm reading one line, I'm getting confused by all the other words around it, both above and below. Which is annoying cause I'll read a sentence inserting a few other words that don't belong in it and then get all confused cause it doesn't make sense. Its annoying and its making reading take alot longer than necessary cause I either need to read it out loud or I need to cover all the lines but the one I'm reading with paper and slowly move down the page. I'm hoping this is something that'll go away once I'm feeling better and not as tired. If not, I have an eye appointment next month...
Jack has started putting his toys in his food dishes. First it was his little catnip mouse in his food dish, every morning I come out and its in his dish. Tonight when I came home, his stuffed dog was in his water dish. I do not understand the need to feed and bathe his toys, but I'm not a cat I guess...
Okay... sleep!

Reading Vaccine

Regarding the title... I don't know. I couldn't think of anything that combined the two subjects dicussed in the following post.

The university has been doing measles, mumps and rubella vaccine clinics for the last little while. I considered getting it but I haven't had the chance to go. Today I was mentioning this, the moment I said "maybe I should get that", Lsgb and Islander simultaneously yell "yes". So apparently my friends think I should get it cause I keep getting sick. Maybe not such a bad idea. It'd be just my luck for me to one of those things and then end up ill for weeks on end.
**Apparently I have already had this, in high school, so no need to get it then. Which is good cause I'm not so fond of being stuck with needles.

In other news, my textbooks for Russian History finally came in. Which means I can catch up. I skipped the Russian History class this afternoon so I could get to work on the reading. Not sure if that's a good or bad thing but I have 19 chapters in one book to read and about 250 pages in another. Should be fun.
It's 3:10pm on the 25th.... I'm on chapter 2. Let's see how long this takes!

4:50 - Just finished Chapter 5! Now I'm going to clean up the apartment a bit, eat something and head out to my work staff meeting.

8:15 - So, back from the staff meeting. I hate staff meetings but it wasn't too bad, I got to see a few coworkers who I like and I haven't seen in awhile so that was good. Now its back to the reading for a bit.

9:00 - House and Bones season premieres! Yay! And company. Back to school work later on.

12:35am 0n the 26th- Company is gone and I have yummy cookies to eat and a good fill of Dr. House. On a sidenote, I researched the Oxford Seminars on LSATs today cause well the plan is to possibly write next July or so. But I definetly will not be doing one of those since they cost ALOT. Okay, going to go read a bit, haven't slept much lately so I'm unsure of how long I'll be able to stay awake.

1:30 - Ok. I'm not going to get work done. I'm too tired. So sleep. I'll get back to it tomorrow. Night all.

6:45 - So I'm up. This is ridiculous. My day off and I'm up already. But I couldn't sleep due to a few things on my mind and the searing pain in my lower back. Oh and the ridiculous hunger pains. So to the reading it is.

11:00 - Woo! Onto Chapter 11!

11:45 - I replied to some emails. And ate a cookie. Now I feel icky and must shower before getting back to my reading.

1:00pm - So lawschoolgonnabe needs her Business Law notes. That I have here. And she's far away. So I have to type 'em up and send them to her. They needed to be typed up anyways and this will be all the studying that gets done for our test tomorrow on my part.

2:45 - Okay. Notes typed. And my living room is a disaster. There are books and paper everywhere! It looks like exam time hit. I want to clean. But if I do... then I won't get any reading done. And I only have eight chapters left! and those 200 pages...

4:45 - Done up to Chapter 13. Going to a cheap dinner and a movie with M and ClivesLover. Even though I really shouldn't cause I have a ton of work to do.

11:30 - I'm home. The early movie we were supposed to catch did not happen. I should have just come home but by the time the bus got me here it would have been pointless. So, going to call my mom and get back to the reading.

3:15am on the 27th - Almost finished! The chapters at least. Really need to study for Business Law too...

6:45 - So, I finished most of the reading and studied for Business Law. Also fell asleep for a bit I think. I'll assume that's where that hour I can't remember went. Now its time to start the long day. So procrastination/distraction thingy for the reading is now over. Have a great day all!

Horrible, but funny

I just had a conversation with someone surrounding the current quote in my msn name :""Take him for a test drive, maybe he's got unlimited mileage. Which'll make up for the fact that he's a sub-compact."

After I was asked where the hilarious quote came from (Bones by the way), she asked "So what was the verdict?"

Me: "Turned out he was a fullsize"

Her: "I'm gonna have to start looking for more fullsize with unlimited mileage."

We can skip the part where I agree and move onto the part that also made me laugh. She said she had to do a ton of work tonight. I said to go work and then reward herself with the afore mentioned, she replied, "Wish I could, but my rental agency is in your town."

Anyways, enough of very dirty jokes. That was my unstressing after that seminar, which I couldn't tell ya how it went. Cause honestly I really don't have much of a sense of it. Pretty sure it wasn't the A I needed though. Okay. Gonna go relax and read. Later!

So Screwed

9:00pm - So, I have a seminar to present in a little over 12 hours. I've started, however I don't know what this prof wants. Last year when I had a seminar our prof gave us an idea of what he expected. This one however, told us to present the chapter. I'm a bit fuzzy on what exactly that means. And yes, I asked him. I emailed him and asked what he wanted, I even asked some specific questions. He didn't answer any of my questions. Just said to "present the chapter" and to consult the syllabus for more information... the syllabus has one paragraph on the presentation. It tells us what we are presenting on and that it should be informative and interesting. Oh that's sooo specific, thank you!
I need a good mark in this class, but its hard to get a good mark when you don't know how to get that mark. Anyways, I should get back to it I guess.
On a side note, our washer and dryer now take loonies. That kinda makes my collection of quarters useless... anyways...

10:57pm - Jack is making it nearly impossible to work. He wants to play. So he keeps chasing my pen and chewing on my papers. And then he brings his toys onto my lap so I'll pay with them with him. Its like having a kid I tell ya. So I'm going to go let him go to the laundry room with me (very bad habit I know) and hopefully that'll give him his fill for the night so I can get back to work.

Smooth... Part deux

So, one of the emails that was in my inbox was one confirming a textbook I had ordered online. It contained the original ad etc. Now, normally I wouldn't need that still. Unless returning the book. Which is exactly what I need to do. Cause well, I KNOW the ad said that the book was a 6th edition, which was precisely the edition I needed. Well, when I opened up the package today, I pulled out a third edition copy. Can't say I was too impressed. Soo.. anyone want the 3rd edition of Nicholas V. Riasanovsky's "A History of Russia"? Cause I don't need two!
You may be asking why I did not get this book at the bookstore... have I shared this story yet? If so, you get to hear it again! Sooo... since the class was created quite late and apparently this book is the one any Russian History class in the world would be using, the bookstore on campus was unable to get any in. Well they're getting some in. In October. But going that long without a text... a wee bit difficult. Yep. But at least I have an edition, which is better than nothing.
Okay... Gotta get back to my apartment-cleaning and listening to Oasis (which is making me miss Unnamed) but it's also my feel good music which I need. Alot of right now. Sooo... Later!

Smooth....

So I just deleted all the emails in my inbox. Luckily I'm crazy organized and have most of the important ones divided into folders. However lately I"ve been a bit behind in my sorting so I did lose some. Hopefully nothing too important.
Okay, Russian History! Later!