weekends over

I'm in a mood. And it's a sucky mood. One that involves alot of sleep, laying around and not eating. Ugh.
But I got a haircut this weekend. Grad pics are next week which is pretty exciting and a bit scary - can't believe it's almost over.
My cat keeps getting in my kitchen cupboards and it's driving me crazy. He doesn't get into anything, just goes in and sleeps usually. But it bugs me still.
There are fruit flies in my kitchen too, and I can't find anything that would be drawing them there.
First H4H meeting is this week... should be intersting. We have for drinks afterwards - they will probably be necessary.
Alrighty, gonna veg a bit before heading to bed and tackling yet another crazy week.

So not much has been up. This weekend has been especially dull. It's been raining the whole time so I've spent most of it curled up under blankets at home doing readings, or watching hilarious tv shows.
I was supposed to go to a birthday get together this evening but the rain sucks and I don't want to go out and have to walk anywhere in it.
Anywhoooooo... eventually I will think of something fun to share... promise.

Ok. Allow me to express some stress.
Money. Ah. The problem every student encounters. Mine is a bit more complicated this year though. This year I don't have the option to work: my reading takes forever (at least double the time it would have taken me a year ago), and I can't just get a cashier job, cause my ankle still hates me. So if I work.. I'll be selling my body to hobos or science... maybe both.
I also don't have the option to be paying for physio every couple weeks, or food or heat (p.s. my place is freeeezing, and I refuse to turn the heat on yet).
Anyways, that's my rant. I may be going without food in a few weeks though.
Oh, wait. One more rant: I am on a two to three year waiting list to see that eye specialist. Who the hell knows where I'm going to be in 3 years? I'm not flying across the country to see a doctor. Ugh.
Ok. Must go read and write a paper. Be back in a few days with some sort of fun and exciting story! I promise!

shananigans

First off, the movie Cellular - horrible.
It was an interesting weekend. Friday consisted of twelve straight hours of drinking. And I never bought one drink: which was pretty darn nice.
Last night Lsgb and I went to see My Best Friend's Girl - a little too vulgar for me though.Funny but wrong alot of the time.
I did get some laundry done, all my homework/reading done, and my apartment cleaned though.
It was a good weekend though: saw M and Cliveslover, made up with one of them. Had some good hang out time with L and K and discovered that Islander kisses when he's drunk.
Anywhoooo I'm gonna finish watching this movie and get myself ready for the long week ahead.

Alrighty... this Holocaust class is horrid. Good grief... sooo depressing! It's gonna be a long term. Last night I cried through half my readings: I'm tearing up again. And I can't become apathetic to it. I'm just not that kind of person: I try and appear to be very insensitive sometimes but I"m really not. The commercials about starving kids and babies dying from bad milk make me sad. My apologies if I'm a sap but I just am. :(

politics in pretty dresses

I walked into a room today and three people told me I looked pretty! It made me happy. THese comments made Islander blush; this and a few other incidents lately would lead me to believe there's something going on that I haven't been informed of.
I went to a meeting about politics this morning. I hate politics, but I do feel the need to participate in electoral processes so I'm at least trying to make an informed decision when it comes to my MP candidate. I've decided to start my own party though... one that combines aspects of communism, fascism, conservatism and liberalism. This spurred by the fact that I agree with neither the liberals, conservatives or NDP but find many fascist and communist theories most intriguing. I think it'll make a great party.

new specs

Sooo I got the new glasses. They're blinding. The bifocal is in a different place then my old ones and its stronger so they are taking some getting used to. Looking down quickly is bad: cheap drunk feeling though. And reading is taking some practice but hopefully I'll get used to them quickly so I can reap the benefits and the like!

the morning after

I almost did the stupidest thing last night. I even had myself convinced I'd actually do it. Until it hit me that, in the form of a good swat by lsgb that I am not that kind of girl. Backstage security got a bit sappy from that point on. There were tears and hugs, it was semi-pathetic but a good confirmation of a good friend at the same time. It's good to know that as much as lsgb teases me for many of my more wholesome characteristics, she'd never let me go against any of those without knowning for sure that I was up for it.
On a musical note: the music last night was aweome. We were the backstage crew so we got to meet everyone, hear them practice, see them on and off stage and have alot of fun. I don't know much about guitar playing but I think I know really good when I see it and Ana Papovic is amazingly good. She played some solos last night that were absolutely amazing.
This band - also pretty awesomely cool.
After we were finished working our security, we got free tickets to see the afterparty band: Bloc Party. Who I liked even before seeing them but like 'em even more now.
So it was a great night. Good people, good music, good times. And free money for H4H!

welcome to my high school

I never did the boy drama in high school. My first crush was in grade 12. Yes, pathetic I know. Anyways.... I seem to be paying for it now. But I'd discovered something, I have different men that I "like" in my life.
First, there's the crush: the cute adorable one who makes me giggle just cause he's so sweet and cute. He's great to giggle over with a couple girlfriends but he's not someone I'd ever see myself with for real.
Then there's the friend: he's the one who I'm comfortable with, and happy with. Who I get along with great and who's friendship I wouldn't trade for the world, though everyonce in awhile you wonder what it'd be like. Then you realize its really just cause you're lonely, longing for that type of relationship and that person makes you feel loved. But you know the two of you could never pull off anything more than a friendship and that's really ok with you.
Then there's the guy who interested in me but who I have no interest in unless it's just a purely physical for the heck of it relationship. But that makes me feel really guilty and like a horrible person.
Then there's the current problem: the guy who's been my good friend for a few years, who I've gotten to know quite well for the past little while. Who I've denied having feelings for for a long time, though I could easily seen us together.
Now here's the drama: I hung out with the latter for awhile last night (with my friends and his 'lady friend'). All went well until I got jealous. It was sooo stupid. But it was very interesting for me to see that's how I'd react to that....
Anyways... I need to go work security for a concert, and see three of the above at some point tonight. Bloody hell - its ridiculous.

all dressed up no place to go

I have real admiration for women in university who can come in everyday looking so put together. Dress pants, heels, flawless makeup and fancy hairstyles. I don't know how they do it and am throughly jealous.
I'm pretty sure I'm a naturally flustered person: for me to handle a bookbag, purse and coffee cup on the bus flusters and disorients me to the point of discomfort. To manuever in heels, a fancy top that I can't spill anything on and not hit anyone with my bookbag is nearly impossible.
I have some classmates who everyday, no matter the workload, no matter how late they were out the night before come to class looking spectacular. It's amazing. Cause most mornings I really don't feel like showering, dressing nice, or wearing makeup and often I just don't. Today was definetely one of those days too!

Holocaust Class

I'm going to learn alot this term, so you in turn will as well. I got to transfer into a new course on Monday on the Holocaust. Tonight's readings were enlightening to say the least and they've left me feeling pretty unsettled an bit ticked off. They were primary documents focusing on the history of anti-semitism. One excerpt was part of Martin Luther's book, "On the Jews and Their Lies". I am thoroughly unimpressed with it and quite shocked: I had no idea of his feelings regarding Judaism.
Equally shocking was a papal bull from Pope Paul IV in 1555 and an excerpt from a vatican newspaper in 1893 which both expressed strong anti-semitic opinions. This has led me to look at whether the Catholic Church has ever formally apologized for these instances (and I'm sure there were more).
I had been completely unaware that anti-semitism had such strong roots in history and was definitely not new to the Nazi's. It has certainly already become a very intereseting class.

turn on the lights please

I consider myself a pretty independent gal. I have my toolbox and I know how to use most of the things in it. I can replace a fuse, unplug a toilet etc. I can't always open a bottle of pickles and yeah, I get a bit squeamish squishing a bug but all in all I'm pretty capable of taking care of myself.
I get to be a bit of a wus when it comes to the dark though: I really don't like the dark. I never have. And yeah, I know - There's nothing in the dark that isn't there in the light. But that's not really true you see, things can hide in the dark when they'd be otherwise very visible in the light.
This comes after I just walked from the bus stop to my apartment in the dark, later then I've come home yet since the move and alone. It's a few minute walk from the bus to my place and though there are street lights in spot, I really don't like it. I'm pretty confident that I couldn't defend myself anything anything that were to jump out at me or whatever things in the dark do.
Anyways... so if some night I don't get home it's cause some creature/creepy guy of the night got to me.

I really like Jason Statham. As well as the movies he's in. The End.

So as a new footbal liking person. I've discovered a dilemna. While liking football solves the what-the-hell-to-watch-on-sundays-problem, it creates a what-game-to-watch-problem. There are four different games on this afternoon, which one do I watch? Eeep! Choices! And since I don't have a preferred team or two at this point that doesn't help make the decision for me either....

In sickness news... I'm starting to feel better! :)

And it begins!

Today was my last first day of school. Of this degree anyways. Got to see Islander, which involved a bit of running and alot of hugging. Very good to see him; as well as a couple friends (for future reference, they are K (who I already knew through h4h)and L) of his who are very nice and seem to like me and consider me friends enough to ask how my summer was so yay.
I have two classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays: Sociology of Law and Conflict Resolution. Both look like they're going to be very interesting. And lsgb is in both of them with, and K is in Conflict Resolution. Yay for friends. And yay for no exams in either of those classes! :)
In not as good of news... I'm getting lsgb's cold. Which is already making me quite grumpy.But I'll live, as long as I don't end up with anything more than a cold. I'm sure I'll complain about it lots, my apologies ahead of time.
Yesterday I met with a very nice man, to discuss help for me with my current reading difficulties. We're working on applying for a grant which will help me obtain some technology that should make things easier, as well as get some help when it comes to research and exams. This is good cause I really need to do well this year, and it looks like it'll be a bit of a wait before I see a specialist.
Anywhooo... speaking of reading. I have lots ahead of me so I'm gonna get a head start. Later all.

Unpacking... almost done!

Day 3 of unpacking has revealed a few things:
1) My kitchen is huge when it comes to cupboards. I have unpacked all my boxes labelled "Kitched" and still have empty cupboard space. This means I don't have to put anything on top shelves so I can reach everything easily!
2) I didn't get rid of enough junk.
3) I'm missing stuff still... there is some tupperware without lids and I can't find my corkscrew (which is important, since I bought wine!)
4) I have too many dvd's. In fact, I bought one over the summer, and then it turns out I already have it. Well the copy I already had isn't mine, but it's in my collection for the time being.
5) I also have waaay too many mugs. No wonder I don't wash dishes often enough, I don't need to.
6) I don't have many forks though...
7) I got rid of too many of my winter clothes, I have absolutely nothing warm for this winter, here's hoping it's a warm one.

My bedroom is next on the tackling list so I must get on it.
PS. Jack is super frisky today. And cuddly. He is following me around and is currently chasing his tail on the arm of the chair, and he just fell off. Silly kitty.