I actually woke up this morning quite refreshed despite not sleeping well at all last night. During my 6 hours in bed, I was awake half 30 minutes I think. I'm not sure why but oh well. I'm up now and ready to tackle a million things. This morning consists of classes and coffee with Islander as I've sorely abandoned him this last week and then I must go make a bank deposit for Habitat and see if its possible to get American cash today (very very unlikely) and then I must deposit my bursary (eee!) and then I shall return home for packing.
Expect some sort of I-hate-packing-post at some point today.
Ooo and I can wear my new walking cast boot today! With the closed toe so my toes don't get all wet and snowy, yay!

Smooooth...

I just doused a cheque for $1000 in coffee. Alot of it went on me too.
Oh and all of a sudden my nose has gotten all stuffy and tickly. No. Can't. Get. Sick.

Quick break from the madness for a fun card trick.
It actually works too!

I love this song.
I am not going to get anything done today. I woke up with a lovely headache this morning (I blame it on lack of sleep and probably a couple too many drinks last night). I did a bit of work but now I'm off to a 3 year old's birthday, followed by dinner with Islander. Who will be very happen to know I've read up on the whole Kosovo thing so as to have some idea of what the hell he's talking about.
Anywhooo, off I go. Happy weekend!

8 sleeps!

I've been busy, sorry for the lack of posts. Went back to classes (sorta) this week and had meeting with insurance people, as well as a million and one habitat things to do so things got a little out of hand.
Took last night off to see Jumper with Lsgb though. Good movie. Much of mine and lsgb's comments were terribly inappopriate and revolved around beautiful people and accents.
I hate the feeling of knowing there are things I need to do/get but not being sure what those things are! Next week is going to be a bit more stressful than need be because I am going to lose two days while I'm back in the hometown for doctor's appointments. I see the neurosurgeon (apparently the best in the area) on Thursday as well as an allergy doctor. I'm getting allergy tests. Joy. Cause apparently its not possible to be allergic to insulation. So before I leave this time, I'll actually know what I'm allergic to!
Anyways, no time. I've already had to plan to skip a class so I can go to the bank. Always nice.
Anyways, I'm going to return to the list of emails I need to send and then try to get some school work done.

I'm back!
It's very nice to be back in my own space. I have unpacked, gotten groceries and made crescent rolls.
I have my new cast, which makes walking sooo much easier. However, I was out this morning get groceries and honestly, everything but my ankle was hurting. Its amazing what this thing does the rest of my body. My left thigh and arch of my foot are killing me from putting most of my weight on that side of my body, my back and hips are mad at me for the limp and the cast is rubbing against my leg when I walk so I've got some nice irritation going on there. That's gotta get fixed cause it hurts alot and makes walking around and doing anything very frustrating.
But in good news... I went to part of the Habitat pubcrawl last night! It made me very happy to see everyone and I got hugs and there were some adorable people there, as well as alot of drunk people and it was good.
I also got my talking computer program yesterday!! It reads my books to me. It makes me happy and makes getting school work done sooo much easier. Though it still takes a long time but its easier.
I finished Stargate, Season 10, thus finishing the series. Which kinda made me sad... but I'm consoled by continuing Atlantis and the prospect of not one, but two movies this year!
I think that's all that's exciting right now. I'm gonna go get some work done, and then watch movies. My list this week includes Underworld and Resident Evil. Sooo off I go. Hopefully now that I'm back there will be some more exciting things to share!

heh heh

Guess Who?

A guy walks into a post office one day to see a middle-aged, balding man standing at the counter methodically placing "Love" stamps on bright pink envelopes with hearts all over them. He then takes out a perfume bottle and starts spraying scent all over them. His curiosity gets the better of him and he goes up to the balding man and asks him what he's doing.
"I'm sending out 1,000 Valentine's Day cards signed, 'Guess who?'"

"But why?" asks the man.

"I'm a divorce lawyer."

Charlie Brown, you can be my valentine. :)

Good thoughts in the dead of winter

Sometimes I wonder if I've really changed all that much since high school, if I'm still the same pathetic teenager I was then but you know, I have changed. Alot.
When I look back at the past four years or so, I can see where I've changed and grown. Most of it in relation to emotional and mental health. I still have my bad days, if anything I have more of them then I did then. But I've come to deal with them completely differently, rarely do I seriously consider the things I would have done then. I can honestly say its been a year since I've followed through with any self-injury thoughts or behaviors. I'd say this is a good thing!
I'm not really sure why this has changed, I think I've just found new ways of dealing, I've have a different friend base now, ones who I can talk to and not worry about what I say getting them down too. I know they'll be understanding, they'll be concerned for me of course but concern for me will not mean concern for them.
I've picked up new habits, I wouldn't call them bad but I wouldnt't call them good either. I'm much more likely to say I need a night out that involves a few drinks and the possibility of new friends. And I won't deny that after a long horrible day I don't sit down to watch a favorite tv show with a glass of wine.
I have alot more going for me now I think, alot more to live for. I've got school and if I work hard enough at it I know there's a future in more education for me. I've got some amazing friends, who I wouldn't want to be doing any of this without. Habitat gives me a feeling of accomplishment, I feel like I'm giving something worth while within society instead of just taking.
I'm happy, but I'm also content. I like the ways things are, there are a few things that would make it better but I am also aware that even with those things there are still going to be bad times, rough patches and just bad days and that's just part of life and I think I'm growing more and more okay with that.

Rome's on TV. Yay. One of the joys of laying around all day is that one's sleep schedule is completely messed up. I sleep when the family's home and work when they aren't cause they are soooo loud!
Anyways, I think I'm going to restart the Rome series next week when I get home, as I'll have lots of spare time. Okay. Helping lsbg with her seminar so I must go brainstorm.
Oh and she's not coming on the habitat trip. *sniff*.

Featuring Fabulous Facial Features

I don't get facial features. I don't understand how one forehead looks different for another or how a nose can be too long. I never have.
I can't look at someone and say, "Oh she's got so and so's nose!" or whatever. I can't identify people in pictures. Heck, I can hardly pick myself out of a bunch of baby photos. Mom and I have been looking through old pictures and she'll pass me pictures and tell me to pick out someone and I can't do it, at least not be facial features and things like that.
I pick my grandfather out of pictures easily, he's the tall lanky guy with big ears. I pick my mother out of pictures as the boy in the girly clothes with the buck teeth and I pick my aunt out cause she's the one who's never smiling. And even with those markers I'm often wrong.
Facial features have never been something I've noticed, nor have I ever been overly concerned with my own. I like the color of my eyes but that's about it. I couldn't tell you the shape of my face (or anyone else's for that matter), I don't know if I have a regular nose or big lips (I do love 'em though). Oh and apparently I have a chin that all the women in my family just hate. I haven't noticed it as deserving hate, it's an okay chin in my opinion.
I'm complaining though, I can't imagine if I was super concerned over those things, other bodily/self-image concerns are more major for me.

Guess What?

I'm planning a vacation!
Lsgb and I had thrown around the idea of taking a trip this summer to Toronto, we hadn't talked too seriously bout it but we decided we're going to do it. After the way this year has started and the turns I know its going to take I think by the end of this all I'm going to deserve it. I know its gonna cost a bit but I've been putting some money away and I will use my income tax money for it. I am gonna do it.
We've even decided when we're going to go and have even chosen flights, we'll book 'em in a month or two.
So Toronto, and I may leave her there (she's got lots of friends and family she'll want to see) and go out to Alberta to see Dave! and MC provided they want to see me. It's exciting! I've never taken a vacation before, or gone on much of touristy type trip. I've warned lsgb though that when I plan a vacation.. well I plan. Can we say itinerary? lol.
Anyways, gonna get back to it. And then I do need to do some budgeting. Tootles!

Friendly Friends!

I saw some friends over the Christmas holidays and my recent homecoming. Briefly but I got to seem 'em and they are ones I should introduce!

Nessa:) - Nessa:) and I grew up together. We're cousins so that helped and she lived only a couple houses away too. We went to elementary together, were inseperable for our first ten years or so. I switched middle schools and things got a bit rough there, we really drifted apart until about high school. We weren't going to the same school for high school but we took the same bus twice a day and would hang out at lunch. Things are a bit less ideal now that we're in the same city but I see her most times I go home and its really nice. The best thing I can remember about Nessa:) was all the playing we did as kids. We had imaginations alright. We must have played barbies till we were 13. We played cars and cops and robbers. We held basketball games in the backyard (sold tickets and everything, Nessa:) sang O'Canada), hiked through the woods to see how lost we could get (probably not the wisest thing we ever did), we spent every day during the summer swimming at her grandparents (even though neither of us could swim) and we in general we just had kid fun. I miss those times. She's currently living with her BF, he's sweet and treats her well and that's one wedding I actually get to be in! and her in mine (we made that pact when we were like five). She finally got her Chihuahua as she's been wanting one for as long as I can remember.

MC - Not sure how I can describe MC. She's awesome. That works well. We lived together my first year university and it was great (and I might get to live with her again next year!). She's from western Canada but has decided she likes my area a bit more so she's staying here. She's also super smart in just about everything. She's funny, in this odd quirky little way and it makes me happy. I think she understands me too, which I feel as if most people don't. She can play just about any instrument she picks up and she sings too! She's a great catch and any guy is gonna be lucky to have her and I wish she knew that. That's my MC. I miss her lots but we may be in the same city again soon so that's exciting!

Paper quirks

So I'm writing a paper. The university is giving me a really hard time about missing classes despite the fact that this whole situation is due to their negligence but that's another story...
So I must write the paper so that I can say I am saying up to date in my work. Which I am, I just need to write this one... ugh.
But I have certain paper-writing requirments that must be fulfilled no matter where I am, they are as follows. :)
1. Coffee, there must be coffee.
2. Music.
3. Food.
4. Means of procrastination (MSN, blogging, tv etc)
5. Lots of space to spread out my junk.

This all poses some difficulty when I am not at home or at the University, because..
1. I can't carry coffee into my room while on crutches.
2. My mother doesn't like my music and most of my music just so happens to be at my apartment so I am stuck using yahoo music stations.
3. Same as number 1.
4. Mom yells at me when I procrastinate...
5. I'm in bed, there's only a certain amount of room... and if I leave the room then I have to be disrupted and bother the whole time.

Oh and I forgot Jack. A cat sprawled over my books who I keep having to move is also a paper writing requirement. :)

So I guess the bad ankles mean I'll probably never be able to dance eh? Like real dancing... and I guess taking lessons this summer is probably out of the question now... which sucks. :(

Death from time zones

Time zones are out to make my life miserable. Its so difficult to try and be online/awake/sober at the same time as everyone else. M and Cliveslover are four hours ahead of me (the sober was for them as I'm pretty sure that's all they've done in Europe thus far) and Dave! is three hours behind me. It's crazy!
I'm feeling a bit down today, had myself a good cry last night and that general feeling followed me into today. That and I'm just getting lonely and the boredom is starting to become a bit depressing as is the apparent lack of friends I have in this city. My family is driving me crazy and there is no way for me to get away from them.. It's been a bad few weeks and it's just starting to catch up with me I guess.
For now though, I'm going to go write a paper.

Ever spend so much time trying to deny something to everyone that you actually convinced yourself too? And then when you realize it, its a complete surprise? And then even though it could be a wonderful wonderful thing, you stand to lose so much that you continue to be too chicken to do anything about it despite the fact that it'll drive you crazy till you do? So you dig up its hole again, toss it in and try to throw the dirt back on top knowning you'll never fully succeed...

Yay! an outing!

So somehow my cast broke. I haven't the fuzziest how but it did. So I must go to the hospital to get it fixed. Yay! I get to see the light of day!
In other news, I kinda like football. I watched the Superbowl last night and thouroughly enjoyed myself.
Okay. That is all.

Another boring post

So when you stay in bed all day doing school work and watching TV there is never anything exciting to share.
I played with some h4h numbers today. Things are going to work out for us this year... very well I might say. I'm happy.
I'm gonna watch the Superbowl tomorrow! Not cheering for anyone since I don't usually follow football all that much but I need something to look forward to and all of the tv world is so I might as well too!
Oo, I can put my foot down and it doesn't hurt when the blood rushes to it! It gets funny feeling but doesn't hurt too badly which is a change from the first little while. And I have mastered the wheelchair, looking forward to getting into something a bit less large and invalidy though.
Alrighty, that's the end of my boring update.