And the most important thing I learnt the past couple days...
My friends care for me. Most of them at least.
They don't want to see me hurting, and they don't want to see me getting myself into a situation where I'll end up hurt.
One friend teared up during our little heart to heart and it meant alot.
It's makes me happy... and sad that I can't want better for myself and realize my own apparent "potential" and good qualities etc.
See... I'm crying just thinking about it.. bloody hell.

On a sidenote... during the laptop accident my papers etc got ruined... would it completely pathetic of me to copy my entire book of h4h notes into another notebook?